LIVING WITH DEPRESSION: My Story in the Shadows.

I Will never forget the day darkness entered my heart.

It started like any ordinary day. I had just come back from a quick shower when I saw that my mother had called me several times.

I called her back,not expecting anything.

But what she said changed my life: " Your father has died"

I don't remember what I was doing at that moment.

I don't remember how I responded,where I sat, or even if I cried.

But the date and time I received that news-

Those have never left my mind.not once.

From that day ,something in me shifted.

A heaviness I didn't understand settled in my chest.

I told my self: " It will pass. time heals everything."

But I didn't realize that I was slowly dying too on the inside.

I started wearing his clothes.

I used his belongings- his watch,his pen,his bag.

May be I thought keeping his things close would ease the pain or stop the memories from haunting me.

But I was wrong.

What I was really doing was welcoming the darkness into my soul.

I looked fine on the outside.

But I was drowning in silence.

And nobody noticed-except one person.

One day ,that person looked me in the eyes and told me the truth:

" Paccy , you're not okay.you're sick.

your father is gone , but you're still here.

you have to live."

She saw it.

She saw that was fading.

Then she added something that stayed with me:

" Light will return.but only God can give it to you.

Take time to Pray.

Ask Him to heal the pain you carry inside."

Those words stuck with me.

And one day,I finally listened.

I went to a small Prayer gathering,one focused on Jesus the Merciful.

I didn't know what to say

I had no perfect prayer

I had no strength.

So just sat there.

And in my heart, with tears rolling down,

I whispered one sentence:

" If you want, you can heal me."

That's all i said,

Nothing more.

But something shifted.

From that moment,I felt like a heavy cloud lifted off my chest.

It didn't erase the Pain completely, but for the first time in a long time-

I could breathe.

I realized then that depression doesn't always start loud.

Sometimes,it sneaks in through grief.

It hides behind long silences,missed calls, endless sleep,or constant fatigue.

you think you're just sad... or Lazy.

But it's more.

What I want to say to you is simple:

Don't stay in the darkness.

Even if the Pain feels endless.

Even if the grief is too heavy.

there is light- and God is the one who gives it.

He sees even the prayers you don't say out loud.

Even your tears are understood.

Conclusion:

The illness of losing my father didn't lie to me.it brought me closer to God the Father. It made me realize that God is omnipotent.

He has the power to heal people who are broken and weary,even when I was about to be overwhelmed by sadness and grief.he listens and restores.

Tell depression that Paccy gave us testimony.

she was healed,and she believes that it was God

who allowed her Father to pass away because he had found rest from the struggles and hardships of this world.

This is my story.

Maybe it's yours too.

Maybe you're where I once was.

Fall to your knees

Surrender the pain

Even if you have no words,God hears silence too

He is Merciful

And He can heal you.

God is Good - All the Time

And all the time - God is good.

Praise be to the One

Who heals the brokenhearted,

Who lifts the weary,

Who delivers people from depression.

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Paccy's World.