I think my soulmate found me in my dream

Another normal, boring evening. Made dinner, ate that and went to bed. I have been working on building my online business and following my heart calling. It is actually quite strange for me to be doing this and I know there is going to be people judging me. Honestly I think thats the hardest part. Staying true and believing in yourself through all of it. Im going to share how I did it.

I imagined everyone one I knew and ever met. Thought of the life I wanted and who I could take with me. When I tell you I couldn't think of one person. I could think of people I loved that meant a lot to me but they weren't the ones that were going to be with me on this journey. As I'm writing this now I'm in midst of it. Who I want in my life because it's changing. I escaped the system. I can see clearly now I dont have the mental blocks. I am completely free. That doesn't mean anything has changed to be honest but I know my new reality is coming.

If I'm being completely honest. Not even my family will hear from me after the change happens. I'm a firm believer that your environment has a lot to do with our attitudes and routines. Personally my family brings out the worst in me. They make me miserable, argumentative and just sad. I think it's hard for people to understand unless they haven't grown up in abusive family but when your dad is a narcissist and mum is, I would say she is cruel. To me she is the word cruel. This is a long subject and I will be writing about this in the future.

Let's get to the fun part of this story. I went to bed and had the most strange and amazing dream I have had in months, maybe even years. I've never been a girl to dream of boys but someone found me in my dream. That can seem a bit out there but it was the strangest thing ever. I was in a beautiful house, sitting on a gorgeous sofa. The guy comes which in the dream is my boyfriend, asks me questions about my day the usual then the dream cuts to this island party. It's on a island that you can only access by a ferry boat or a helicopter. In the dream my boyfriend is also really rich for some reason so I get to take the helicopter with my friends and get dropped of there. Up until here it's a normal dream I guess.

My boyfriend comes a a little later near the end of the party and Im standing at the entrance, I kinda want to go but Im not sure. As Im talking to one of my friend he hugs me. All of a sudden this life changing hug. I have never been held like that before. He just stands and hugs me. I literally felt it. I think its all I have ever wanted was just to be hugged like that. After that all my doubt, indecisiveness went away. I just said, Im going home now and hopped on the ferry and left. I felt so strong, so safe. Then when I got off the ferry I felt like I made a mistake and should have stayed so I called him.

Expecting him to arrive blazing angry. How stupid am I? the party was still going on, my boyfriend is there an I left. He came. Picked me up of the street and hugged me again. I was almost going to say sorry and all of that but he just smiled. I woke up. For the first time in my life I have had a dream like that, it was so real. Everything that I want in my future person.

I have always felt like I'm the less loved, less wanted, less everything really. Which is kinda childish to say but it's how I have always felt and I just got on with it stopped feeling, stopped caring, I cut that emotion away from me. I think the biggest reason why this dream was so beautiful for me was because it gave me back that emotion. We all deserved to be loved, accepted and cared for with nothing in return. The feeling of safety, something I have looked and searched for my entire life. This dream has given me hope, a peak into what is waiting for me. Possibility.