I STILL LOVE HIM

In 2017 December, I was about travelling home from Lagos. At the park, I met this guy named Mike,He immediately caught my attention but I had to pretend as if I don’t care, Apparently he was liking me too so he walked up to me and we started talking. The vibe was unmatched not gonna lie.

We had this whole delay at the park so we literally spent the whole day together,We didn't end up traveling that day though. When I was about leaving the park, Mark asked for my number and I gave it to him.

When I got home, I waited all evening for his call and hoped that I didn’t mistakenly gave him a wrong number, I didn't get his surname neither did he get mine so there was a 0% chance of me looking him up on Facebook. Finally his message came in and I was so glad.

The months that followed were amazing. We started having good conversations, we literally spoke every single day and he'll always fill me in On everything going on in his life. It was such a good feeling for real to a point that it felt like my going to the park on that particular day was because we were destined to meet.

We were really cool for over a year and I started having really strong feelings for him. I wasn't expressive about it but I hoped he was going to bring that up.

Sadly, he had friend zoned me and I felt really hurt. He made me a major part of his life more like his best friend. I got really frustrated at some point though, reason being that, he started sending pictures of various girls he found attractive to me and regularly asked for my opinion on who to date. Funny how I always gave my opinion and acted as though I wasn't hurt by it.

The only image I had of him was the one from the day we met initially, then pictures. We hadn't seen each other since then but I was desperately in love with him.

By the beginning of 2019, I met someone else that was very much interested in me, His name Sam. After I met Sam I was a bit distracted from Mark but our friendship was still intact, but I wasn’t much interested in having a relationship with him anymore.I had to come to terms with the fact that we were just friends.

Months later Mark called me one evening and told me he wants us to talk about something very important and I told him to go on, then he started telling me how he has been in love with me all the while but was scared of expressing himself because he didn’t want to ruin the friendship we had.

At this point Sam was already in the picture so I had to tell Mark about him and how far we’ve gone, he was so unhappy

One morning I woke up to a message from Mark telling me how hurt he is and how he has to block me so he’ll be able to move on, before I could check I found out that Mark had block me in all social platforms and I couldn’t reach him anymore.I missed my friend so much but life happened.

Few months after,he unblocked me on instagram but I couldn’t write him because I was scared he wouldn’t reply

One morning I woke up to a message from him on Instagram and I was really excited. It just felt really good and a complete fresh start.

We finally officially met few weeks back and I literally can't get him out of my head. He's such a fine man and his so attentive to everything that concerns me and it feels like I've fallen in love all over again but this time, it's stronger than it was before.

He tells me how much he loves me and apologizes at every given opportunity for friendzoning me and making me chose between girls for him not knowing he was hurting me.

I think I love him so much