Forest Nymph: My Letter to HER

I know I'm in love with her because

I like what I see

I like what I feel

When she rejected me

I still respected she

Because she did nothing but keep it real

If I were to write a letter of appreciation to the Forest Nymph that I crossed paths with a few years back, I guess it would go a little something like this:

No matter how things turn out for either one of us, I want you to know that I'll always have nothing but profound love for you. Whenever I'm at my easel, you are my muse, inspiring me and filling me with the love I need to put paint on a canvas. Or whenever I'm looking for something to write about, I just dig into my heart and brain for the memories of you. You have been my most outstanding teacher, as well as my greatest lesson. Whenever I was in your presence, I knew that I was beholding a GODDESS. I could feel exactly what and who you were. And even though I couldn't word my feelings the way that I wanted, in my head, I was serenading you with the sweetest of melodies. I dream of your smile, and I picture myself running my hands through your hair. If we ever come across each other again, I can't wait to explain the visions I had the minute I laid my eyes on you. First, though, I do have to apologize for not speaking to you when I know I should have. Nonetheless, it was probably for the best.

Real love used to terrify me, but after encountering you...I've been motivated to discover the most genuine love of all-the love of self. To this day, it amazes me how much I've been working on getting over myself and disciplining my ego. Just when I was beginning to think my ego and id were my best friends, you came in and shined your LIGHT OF LOVE on my karmic ways. Never before has another woman made me feel so powerful and in awe at the same time. Thanks to all of that and you, I've matured in ways that I didn't even think were possible back then.

I understand that right now, we can't precisely be together. And talking to each other is so intense and awkward that it's easier to keep away. But if you were to reach out, I would always respond. No matter what, you'll always have a seat in my heart and mind. And as a Gemini, my mind is a sacred space, so I don't say that lightly.

Now...I'm incredibly passionate, especially if I believe in something or someone. And when I want something-when, I have an undying and burning desire for something (or for a person, in this case), I go balls to the wall even if I humiliate myself. But for the first time in my life, I've been able to remain passionate and yet have patience. So, I know that the right thing I can do for us, or me, is to focus on my own goals and ambitions while loving you from afar. And if you think my fondness for you has died, just know that this FLAME will never burn out.

Whoever you end up with...whoever you marry, have children with, whatever- I pray that you're taken care of. You are the sun, moon, and stars and should be treated as such. I cried real tears for you almost every night and prayed for your health and success before I fell asleep and when I woke up. Life is a beautiful thing when you're able to let people lead the lives that they're supposed to live without focusing so much on molding them into whatever we want them to be. May you and your family live long, healthy, and prosperous lives.

I'll see you on the other side, Forest Nymph.