Foolish regret

At that time, she didn't like the most beautiful boy in her class, but she didn't like the second best girl in their class. Because she felt ordinary, the girl hid her feelings deeply in her heart, and no one told her. She just studied very hard, especially the physics and chemistry that boys are good at. She studied very well and was the best in the class except him. So for this reason, they had more contact than usual. She often found an excuse to ask him about the physical and chemical questions, and he answered them patiently. At the end of the question, facing the boy's serious expression and detailed explanation, the girl's little heart was full of happiness... One day when the boy was transferred to the girl's next table, when discussing the topic with him, the girl deliberately dropped her pen on the ground alternating with the boy, then deliberately pretended to put her hand on the boy inadvertently, bent down and picked up the pen

In the girl's memory, it was the first and only physical contact between her and the boy. At that time, the feeling of excitement and guilty conscience was still very clear in her mind. Although it has been so many years, every time she inadvertently thought of it, she still felt her heart beating faster.

By the third day of junior high school, she and he were divided into different classes. From then on, she could no longer see his figure and hear his voice every day. Her heart was full of loss, and her grades slipped a lot unconsciously. Until the arrival of the first monthly exam on the third day of junior high school, she saw that his ranking was still in the third place on the honor list, but her name was not above... His heart was touched, so she began to study wholeheartedly from then on, and there was only one purpose: to put her name in the nearest place to him. Only in the big and small tests, her ranking was always one or two behind him. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't reach the fourth place. However, her disappointment turned into her driving force for learning. Finally, in the last high school entrance examination, she successfully ranked their names together, but this time she was third and he was fourth

Similar grades made them choose the same school, but different classes in the same school. However, the girl was very satisfied with the result. But after school, she seldom saw him. Even if she met him, he just said hello. This situation made the girl feel infinite sadness.

The arts and Sciences in senior two were divided into classes. She and he were divided into another class again. Just knowing the news, the girl was excited to lose sleep for several days. But the situation after the beginning of school disappoints the girl, because he is always surrounded by too many girls, but she can only be a quiet spectator. Although she always looks for opportunities to find the tacit understanding when they once discussed problems, unfortunately, the memory of junior high school seems to have been very vague to him. However, girls' appreciation of boys has increased with the increase of time. Gradually, the boy's name became synonymous with the perfect boy in her heart, and she was deeply fascinated by him.

Time flies. The three years of middle and high school are over, and a long summer vacation is coming. In that summer vacation, the girl deeply realized the boy's carefulness and consideration. In the gathering again and again, the original loose emotions in the girl's heart gradually converge into deep attachment. However, the girl still didn't express anything to the boy and still played her careless character as a friend.

Entering the University, the girl's world completely lost the boy's figure. At that time, the girl was surprised that the world without the boy was loaded with only loneliness. At that time, the girl was fascinated with sleep, because as long as she slept, she could see the boy's bright smile and gentle voice in her dream... But every time she woke up, her missing increased by a few points. For a period of time, the girl was addicted to the Internet again. She ran to the school Internet cafe almost every day, because she knew that the boy often surf the Internet, and every time she saw the boy's name on QQ and classmate records, the girl's heart would miraculously calm down, and her heart would be very uneasy if she didn't see his name... When the sisters in the bedroom were talking about their love, the girl would lie quietly on the bed and outline the boy. But the girl doesn't know if it's called love, so she doesn't dare to say his name easily, and the girl doesn't say this feeling to the boy, because the girl knows in her heart that the boy's feelings for her are different from her feelings for him.

One day, the girl met the boy on QQ again, chatting and chatting, and then they talked about the emotional problems. On a temporary impulse, the girl said, "I like you, how about you? How do you feel about me?" The boy was stunned there for a long time. He replied, "to tell you the truth, I don't feel for you. I've only regarded you as a good friend all the time, and I promised a person to wait for her for four years." Such an answer was expected by the girl, but listening to him personally, her heart still felt hollowed out in an instant. Tears flowed down like this. For the first time, I shed tears for the two words of emotion, and I realized the colic of heartbreak for the first time. However, she still can't let go, can't stop missing him, call him, and say with indifferent words that she will wait for him for four years, but she knows in her heart that saying it means making a commitment, not a joke, and this has also become the best excuse for her to miss him and dream of him. In her heart, she is always looking forward to, looking forward to one day her infatuated waiting, hoping for his sincere return

After two years of struggling with the contradiction between letting go and persistence, the girl experienced a lot, matured a lot and thought a lot about this issue. She gradually understood that her persistence and infatuation may only be his burden and scruples. So when he sent a search message that day, she knew that he might have found a girl he liked, so she took this opportunity to tell him that she knew her feelings for him were not love, and she would not stick to the previous four-year appointment.

But the girl didn't know that the boy's girlfriend was the girl's best friend. When she just knew it, the girl thought silently all night with her quilt covered. She originally planned to ignore him and her friends. However, after all, the girl was still too kind. After two days, she gave up her original insistence because she didn't want her friends and him to be hurt, but she seemed to forget, In fact, she is the one who suffered the most