Finding closure and moving forward

Meeting him on January 2nd, 2022, wasn't my first time seeing him, but it was the first time I had met him. I just knew that I wanted to be with him forever. However, sometimes I think that one day I might look back and laugh at how certain I was. When he left to go abroad, it was tough for me. I miss him so much, and I don't think I have loved anyone else the way I love him.

Things between us are still uncertain, and I don't know if we will end up together or not. Sometimes I feel like we don't talk enough, and he doesn't open up emotionally to me. It makes me wonder if he truly loves me or just pities me. I'm not sure what to do; should I give up on us forever, or should I keep trying?

I know I need to make a definite decision on what I want. I have to stop forcing myself on him and give him space. I won't tell him that I miss him, and I won't initiate contact. I need to stop thinking about him and thinking that we might get back together. I need to get my life together.

I feel like he still cares for me, but sometimes I'm not sure. Yesterday, he told me everything that I have ever wanted to hear from him, and he said it all loudly. He still loves me, and I love him too. We want to get back together, but I know that it depends on me. So, my goal for 2023 is to get better, become more stable, and put my life together.

"We finally learned to put some distance between us. No more everyday calls and texts. Honestly, a part of me feels relieved and more relaxed because I don’t feel so sad anymore. While I have met a few people who are interested in me and whom I like, I haven't been able to fall in love or move on from him completely.

I know that we still have feelings for each other, but we can't do anything about it. He told me that he got involved with someone new, and it hasn't been easy for either of them. Similarly, I haven't been able to say yes to a new relationship. Sometimes I feel too lonely, and other times I don't feel ready for the space he filled in my heart to be replaced."

"Sometimes I think I should regret meeting him, but I don't. I feel blessed to have fallen so deeply in love with him and to have the feeling of never wanting to let him go. Even though I've had some tough times and heartbreaking moments, I never feel the need to have any regrets.

I never imagined all of this happening in my life, but falling in love with him has been a life-changing moment. Every moment we've spent together has been one of the greatest experiences of my life. I love and cherish these moments for the rest of my life, and I've realized that true love really does exist."

I still hope and wish that fairytales exist, and we find our way back to each other again. If only I could get a glimpse of my future and know how it's going to play out, even if it's just six months from now.