Escaping

I always think about reasons that I should be upset about things not working out with somebody that I was crazy over, then I think about the things that I escaped from as well. 

I don’t want to fill this blog with tales of woe. 

That’s not what I plan to do.

However, I have to stop and thank my ancestors, for the things that I managed to escape!

1. I was heartbroken but I still have life – There are so many people who get their heart broken and are suicidal and don’t think life is worth it. I have never been that low, and I thank my ancestors for that. I never want to experience the kind of love that makes me want to end my life just because that person doesn’t feel the same way or it doesn’t work out. You can keep that kind of love. No, thank you, I’m good!

2. They freed me up for the person who really loves me to come along — Look, let’s just be real; if somebody is in the way, there is no possible way that somebody could love you. It’s just not gonna happen! So let them go ahead and free you up for a person who is really loving you to come in their place. Enough said!

3. They don’t get to use me as a crash test dummy! – You wanna know if that new narcissistic method that you use to manipulate someone works or not? Well, you won’t be using me. All your other ways clearly worked because, listen, you got me! However, anything new that you come up with, you’re on your own, buddy!

4. I don’t spend my days in mental anguish!- Well, one things for certain, and two things are for sure, you don’t like me! The feeling is now mutual and I can be free to go around without worrying about what you’re doing, who you’re doing it with, why are you not doing it with me, feeling like I’m in adequate, wondering why you think I’m inadequate, and all the barrage of mental disturbances that would course through my day. They are gone!

5. Frankly, I don’t give a damn! – There has to be a point in time where you realize who you are, what your value is, and that you’re a fucking rockstar! You just have to not give a damn anymore. Yeah, it’s hard. There are still some days that I’m just baffled as to what happened and it’s like I sit there and I’m confused but what the fuck is there to be confused about really? If somebody does not want you, if they are not invested in you, they didn’t see your value, they didn’t think that you were worthy of taking a chance on like you took on them and got fucked over, then move the fuck on. Plain and simple. Nothing else to discuss.

There are a whole books out there that can help you through times like these. Trust me, the Bible is one of them for me (no, this is not about religion) And Amazon is chock full of books that can offer you some therapy.

The truth is, financially, everybody ain’t able! Right now, I’m unable to can. However, what I can do is get on Amazon, search what I’m going through, look at those ratings and reviews and go from there. Trust me, it helps!

I know personally, I didn’t want to be stuck in a rut of heartache that was keeping me from fully being open to the love that’s meant for me. So, I had to do what I had to do. I’m doing therapy on my own and therapy at home. 

Oh, and manifesting. I can’t forget I’m manifesting. I’ll be damn if I don’t get the love I want!