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Hey, it's me again. I just got back from Salem. It was a harrowing trip if I am honest. I know they aren't even pushing as much as they could but it was enough to bring down my spirits a bit.

I was going to talk about it but I kind of don't have any strength today. My stomach has been sort of messed up all day and my throat is all messed up.

I am annoyed with the situation I am in right now. I had to migrate to my mom's room because my ex sister in law is cleaning the house. My mom is most likely paying her, and even though I need money, I am not worthy of money according to my family.

Slavic tarot is saying

If they could unalive you, they would.

Ok girl, chill. I am talking to Ukranian/Canadian, Japanese, and Chinese/Canadian men.

The Japanese guy was older and seemed to want to teach English to Japanese people, but since only foreigners were coming into his room, he resolved himself to just teaching Japanese.

I've been studying Japanese for a long time so I speak decently well. The Ukranian was a beginner so, The Japanese sort of translated our conversations to him. Of course, I did the same and would type out the words as well.

" Do you know Hiragana? "

I just typed out some stuff in hiragana but the conversation went sort of fast so, it wasn't as effective as just translating into English every Japanese sentence verbally.

It was actually pretty fun, we talked about the normal stuff. I told the Chinese guy about Jimmy and about the across the bridge noodles...

I feel a bit that I've wasted the day but the algorithm has been pretty kind to me today and I have been avoiding anything too crazy so it is all good. Other than my family coming over, my tongue getting some sores on it, and my stomach being upset (it is recovering pretty well right now though).

I'm listening to Reiki making me wonder why I listen to tarot when these reiki videos are making m feel 100% better.

Finally getting caffeine in my system and talking to some Filipino break dancer got me feeling better. Mm, it is easy for me to talk to him and it is nice.

I looked at myself in the video I made and was like " God, I am fat. At least I am not ugly, but I need to lose weight. "

I got to start exercising in the office when I feel like I can. Now that my depression seems to have disappeared, I don't have an excuse anymore.

I decided to get Carl's Jr. for dinner tonight, but I think this is the last time I am going to get fast food for a while. I foresee my future being pretty good.

I am really tired. Dealing with everything to get a new apartment makes me feel like Louie from Unbroken. I do know I need to start adhering to my task list again but I am just sot of getting over mind fog and also I got these sores in my tongue and like most nasal drip so, I am wondering if I am getting sick now.

I am actually grateful right now, I mean, I am almost at the home stretch. I guess I need to just consider what I need to pack or what not.

I decided to order something from a sandwich shop. Nice sandwich and soup.

I got some inspiration to update and edit my Patreon so I have been working on that. I guess it is kind of like, I need to have my hobby or side gig once I get into my new apartment.