Confessions of a Former Alcoholic Part 14

In addition to the $10,000, I spent $2,000 on beer and smokes between July and August. This is almost throwing me into debt.

I start drinking in the morning and just fall out in bed. I'm quite bored of it. During a recent visit to a friend's home, I discovered that he was in debt and only consumed alcohol. I think booze is for losers.

In addition to the $10,000, I spent $2,000 on beer and smokes between July and August. This is almost throwing me into debt.

I begin drinking in the morning and then collapse into bed. I'm quite bored of it.I recently visited a friend's home and realized that he was in debt and exclusively drank booze. I think alcohol is for losers.

There is nothing that can be done. In the previous section, I talked about those who drink for pleasure, but I cannot be such a person. Because I have experienced enough trauma and that is why I am changing my entire life and becoming a Christian. Even in the country I live in, people blindly believe in everything without knowing anything about religion.

I'm four days into my sober living, and I swear I won't say anything. My family typically assesses me based on my financial situation, but I have broken off communication with them, and we only speak about money and business. We do nothing else. That's when I realized my family was not a true family.

They discriminated against their children based on age and they had the resources to make my nephew an American citizen when he was born, but they did not. I'm uncertain whether I possess a high level of intelligence, but I tend to steer clear of individuals who exhibit that caliber of intellect. Instead of getting into disputes, I simply examine the stock market and go about my business in quiet. They know I'll escape, so they want to keep me in a cage.

I'm weary of seeing a drunk at the dinner table, and all I can think about is hitting my father again. I don't even see my cousins, and no matter how much business they do between themselves, I want my family's traditional culture to fade.

My native language is a very suitable language for expressing things indirectly and creative writing is very suitable. The business world is full of nonsense and no matter how honest I am with my family, I can't be anymore. They have a strong desire to hold onto their beliefs.

They call me every once in a while to talk or see if my mood is solid. You could say they are scared of me, and they even said they would sue me if I disappeared from their lives. I'm done with everything, and I would rather not see this family ever again. Should I ever have kids and my parents are still alive, I will never show them my kids.

It is a choice to leave a home where you experienced pain as a child. I wish I'd made this choice five years ago.

It's true that I'm quietly reserved, but I have to be that way to play the silence game and make good money. If you listen to your inner voice instead of external influences, you will consistently excel. Because old people always tell you stupid things.

I'm not saying that people who drink alcohol are idiots, but I am saying that people who regularly consume alcohol are idiots.

Education usually starts with the family, however my family never educated me and instead sought their own pleasures. Ultimately, everyone gets what they deserve. They acquired and lost a son.

I need to visit my hometown every now and then anyhow to see how my nephews and nieces are growing up. At the absolute least, I'd want to consider what type of legacy I'll leave to each of my nephews and nieces. I'm thinking of not giving any of my inheritance to my nephews who grow up to be alcoholics, or even allowing them to see my own family.