Confessions of a Former Alcoholic Part 11

I used to smoke two packs of cigarettes and drink over twelve beers every day.Every day, I would sit on the toilet and watch my stomach stay out. I wouldn't go to the hospital for whatever reason, so I stayed on the toilet till I woke up.For a few days, I requested my mother to watch over and take care of me, but she became tired of my situation and now only calls me.

Following this, I began to investigate my own reality and cut my mother out of my life entirely. Her self-centeredness is the most apparent explanation for this. Two months have passed since this event. In addition to attending church, I want to change my last name and raise a family in England.

I believe that each person is accountable for their deeds.These days, dating applications are useless, as you are surely aware. I also quit social media. I only use social media for research and work.

Even those who interact with the social media industry are bored. People of the modern age are addicted to social media, and today's people only contemplate themselves. I'm also bored of seeing people living their lives on social media. I already hear news about who is doing what, etc.

I'm weary of seeing fake news, especially on fake news websites. It appears that the journalists either lack knowledge or generate sensationalized news. However, you shouldn't be concerned about a person's private life.

In particular, people who lack interest might become overly involved in the lives of others.

I seen that often in my family, and they didn't even teach me how to cook only to spend time with me. I once advised my mother to "turn your recipes into a book," she said. "Everyone already knows that."

As a consequence, I am erasing my whole family culture.

My father's "issues with his own father" have caused pain in my life since I was seven years old. That is why I do not answer the phone, even when my other family members calls me.

Even if you inform others about the issue, nothing changes. They just want to calm you, nothing more.

I was alone on my last birthday

If others didn't sometimes fear me, I would be interested in meeting others who are just like me. I am now beginning a second life because I feel the truth will be revealed in due course.

From what I've observed, I can say that it takes 6 months to get to know a person, and it depends on the experience of that person that a person shows their true character.

I smoke, but I can't drink since my current therapy includes medicine. My sobriety has helped me much, as has the fact that I no longer spend time with my family and have begun to support myself financially.

Now I'm thirty years old. Perhaps I may be affluent and able to help many in my old age. There is universal poverty in my nation; the reason is that nobody has a clue about making money.

Although I was claiming to have the "dark triad" in earlier part , I can now affirm that I do not have it; yet, my mind is still very much active.

At the moment, my main addictions are cigarettes and coffee, but I'm thinking about cutting down on coffee ententirely, it makes me nervous.

What I mean is that you can count on absolutely no one to save you. Build a strong reputation for your work, and people will focus on it instead of your personal life, no matter how wonderful you are in either area.