beyond.

They say wherever you go, go with all your heart

I remember you effortlessly expanded mine

When you bounced into my workplace

I hadn't yet known such sunshine

My body wasn't ready for the expansion

You came into my world

As if our paths were to meet

I was just picking up on the pattern

Closing my eyes

And following my feet

You were my soul’s recognition

Your smile kept mine going (for infinity)

We could have stayed fools like that all day

Beaming

Our first date that night, we kept walking

Never wanting to give in to sleep

Telling stories and watching our familiar city

You carried me up a hill, over the ocean

Laughing,

We knew it was to be

Our five years orbiting and growing

Trusting the process

Writing our love stories, with every scene

I carry them with me, like precious treasure

Our moments are like lifetimes

Weaving

Between memories,

I feel them like interstellar travel

I am instantly filled with freedom

How we lifted each other

in a word, a touch, a gaze

The whole world was our backyard, babe

And we played

We always remembered to play

Gone now are the nights, we’d lay awake

To exchange a knowing glance,

I’d say “I love you” with the touch of your face

How our moments are the fastest portal

To a life we lived in Grace

We practiced love together

Every day

We didn’t miss an opportunity

Even our fighting made us laugh quickly

Love was more important

Than our temporal pain

You were the first to fully embrace me

Despite the vile death,

Hidden in my veins

How my mother’s trauma, had me

Shamefully shaped

Her pain was mine, yet I was blind

It had not yet bled clean

You were steadfast in your caring

That day - you must remember-

I was gutted by her anger

Without my cause, her volcano erupted

I couldn't keep it contained

I crumbled, aching that ancient ache

How a mother could not

Love a daughter

So, in your arms I quaked

You held me tightly, without judgment

Through the passing of the rain

You knew sorrow was not my identity

And you loved me,

Bereft and reeling

You loved my mess all the same

When I saw that I became your family

I, was so young and divinely misshaped

One day I met my worst fear

That it would all certainly fade

Because all I knew -before you-

Was a sliding slope into tragedy

I would surely become a servant,

Ghostly, invisible and frail

How could I deserve such love

Without disappearing

As it seemed my cosmic trade

We would surely follow suit, I thought

That logic was my mistake

You didn’t deserve such scars, from my leaving

I live with it in our story's wake

Gratitude and honour, here, remain

For our chapter, it is too late

Thank you for existing,

For shining as you do

You were every word I wrote

Privately, to the moon

Before I met you

Every dream of a friend

To step barefoot with, was you

I am sorry I left you to find my purpose

Thinking that would balance my equation

I broke your heart and mine that day, forever

And tried to find my calling soon

So we could meet again

And I could say I love you

With everything I do

I see through it, of course, now

The pain's story, a twisted truth

I believed it then

Yet now

I have the memories

to conjure you

Maybe I was not meant to

Hold your hand

Each living day

For your gift to me is,

On my heart,

Forever stained

You loved me alive, without reason

So I would learn of deserving

I bled my inheritance at the river

To do some self-forgiving

Cleansing illusions that enslaved me

I give love now, like you did

Your light is in my veins

I know love travels through me

Going only where it can expand

Its natural way, you see

They say wherever you go, go with all your heart

Now you travel with me

Nothing of you could ever fade

Through the ages

I take you with me in my gratitude

In the minds I help to free from pain

I feel you like how the sun

In my chest can radiate

Like when you took my breath away

Meeting on our first day

You have been part of my purpose

I know it is somehow okay

Love is here

And I give it more freely

No guarantees, no cosmic equations

I knew the dance with you so vividly

But now, with practice,

I am a larger space

I am free to choose, because I choose

To love my heart so tenderly

Freedom is what remains

I trust I will hear its song on a new frequency

I trust the gateway will open

To being seen

The beloved is only so different in each body

So clearly, the dance is the same, between

I trust in love, and let it

breathe through our story

Never ending

It's how I say I love you

In all these passing days