April showers

Looking in the mirror in a euphemistically way . Knowing who I am inside versus how I look on the outside . Internally the proper prima ballerina princess with the personality differing each day . Some days I’m logical and some days I’m very light hearted. Some days I want to wear a cute beanie and some doc martins . Most days I want espadrilles and the ballerina flats that tie all the way up . Some days I wear purple lipstick and rock rob zombie and want to live inside of Taylor momsens old wardrobe. That’s my different personality’s one logical dark and serious. Then goofy peppy cheerleader whose light hearted and wants to hug everyone .

A true Capricorn moon at heart I love beautiful things . Beautiful makes me try harder . I love the all pink ballerina themed aesthetic . I love Pilates and eating healthy . I love men and women and there is nothing wrong with it . Internally I don’t do dark things Or think them my darkness is more of the side I keep to myself . It’s my logical side . I’m similar to the rei ami songs. One side she’s the most confident person you’ve ever seen. The other side she’s soft and delicate . I guess that’s the combination of male and female energies. I love potato’s and coffee . My blood is 75% Starbucks espresso and the other half maxwells best coffee . I love animals so much they make me feel at peace . I’m a lover by nature and I love helping others .

See I know the true side of Capricorn . The most loving and most giving . I’m a future millionaire and trillionaire. I’m a future performer at a venue near you . I’m a tik toker and writer . I’m a amazing mother . A loving partner and the most amazing friend. I will have Christmas cheer all year long . I will put on my Christmas decorations for my own happiness and fun in June. Not in July when it’s popular I already did it so Aquarius north node . I love people so much even more than I can express for myself. I love people even after they’ve moved on . And I don’t see the point in letting go . If letting go is for yourself I don’t like it . Sometimes it is better though . I cut off people who some people would put up with them forever. But if you have been good to me I never forget it .

I love Lana del Rey and hiit workouts . My personality is so complicated . Because I’m go with the flow and calm and easy . But I’m also balls to the wall and push myself more everyday . I’m more worst critic and also my biggest fan . Yoga is the most amazing thing I’ve ever found in my life . I’m a nerd I enjoy Harry Potter more than anything in life and buffy . Universal and Disney are my happy places . I’ve got a really unique experience for life . I’m so thankful for that . I’m thankful to god for giving me this life .

It’s so weird because after trauma it’s like your internally scrubbing your body. Removing all the old debris and becoming you again . Was I becoming more over the years I think so. More feeling internally I couldn’t help but know. What love feels like inside of my soul. I feel like jack skellington in what’s this . Nine times out of ten I choose bliss.