An Open Letter to My Ex.

Dear Ex,

F%ck you! You love bombed me to the point where I couldn't see straight. You made me feel so good at first. But over time your true colors came through. You abused me, You left me with years of trauma to unpack. You left me so broken that I wasn't sure I wanted to live anymore. You destroyed me and left me unable to trust anyone. You never took accountability for your actions and put them on me. You gaslighted me to the point were I actually questioned my own sanity and felt my IQ drop daily. You made me believe I was an idiot. You made me believe I would never get anywhere in life. You treated me like sh*t during s*x. It was all about you. You're clearly the most selfish person I've ever met in my life.

But that doesn't matter anymore, someday I'm going to find someone wonderful and they're going to treat me so well! You're not going to have any say in the situation. This is the last time I will ever write to you. I f*cking hate you. I didn't love you, I was trauma bonded to you. You hurt me. Someday I'm going to find someone amazing. And I'm going to have the best time with that person. They're not going to hurt me, they're not going to abuse me or love bomb me. I'm going to be able to trust them. In fact I feel sorry for the next girl you meet, she's going to be so messed up when you're done with her. She's going to have years of trauma to unpack. She's going to be in Therapy for years and years. She's going to be so broken. I'm going to feel sorry for her. And guess what nobodies going to feel sorry for you!

Honestly? the day I found out you were flirting with a 19 year old was the best day of my life. It was a day that I could finally let go of your sh*t. I'm done with you. I need to learn to trust people again, and that's because you violated my heart and broke it open like a walnut. You treated me like a child on the daily and I don't deserve that. You manipulated me into thinking you were always right and guess what? You were always wrong. Nothing you did was right. You hurt me beyond human belief. I'll always hate you and be triggered by things you did to me. I need to heal and I'm working on it. I'm going to find someone better and they'll love me the way I'm supposed to be loved. So do every women on the planet a favor and stay away from them. They don't need to be abused by you and left with years of trauma to unpack. They don't need to be yelled at, made to feel like an object and left for dead after a few years. They don't need to be told they're not smart enough to finish school or that they'll never get anywhere in life.

They don't need to be criticized and belitted on the daily. They don't need to hear some sob story about a girl that hurt you and left you without saying goodbye. They don't need to hear you complain about all the things you've been through. They don't need to hear about all the hard times you've endured and all your supposedly crazy exe's. They don't need to deal with you. So honestly just stay single forever. And don't come back to me cause I'm done.