Am I Natural a Woman?

If you promise to keep my secret and not judge me along my journey on finding out if I am woman enough.

First, let’s start with the science definition of what determines a woman. To be clear, biological sex is determined by an individual’s combination of sex chromosomes and the type of gametes that they might produce. Second, any example of sexual reproduction assumes reproduction between a biological male and a biological female. There are lots of examples referring to “mothers” and “fathers” (moms and dads) when discussing inheritance, often with gendered depictions of mothers and fathers. A woman has 22rd pairs of two full length chromosomes or XX that is given to her. Many scientists might say that I am sex-linked inheritance with 23 chromosomes.

Now, we have discussed some biology of a woman; here is why I think I am not a woman.

Growing up I always felt that I was different than most as I started to hit puberty. I noticed that I would grow hair on my legs, arms and underarms. Kids would tease me, calling me a hairy monster. I would have to find stronger deodorant as I would sweat in my underarm area. I even grew hair under my chin and chest area. I started to become the monster that the other children said I was. This led to me being depressed and not feeling like I was a normal woman. According to science I was a sex-linked inheritance that has way too many chromosomes to be a woman. Fast forward to adulthood. I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic ovary syndrome) so this explains the hair (hirsutism) on my body in unexplained areas.

What biological man is going to want a woman that grows hair on her chest and face. Maybe I am considered a transhuman or maybe I was born a monster and I am not really a woman nor human. Could I be someone that has mutated into a hybrid of a woman and man? Know, that I have PCOS and it will be harder for me to have children naturally. Do I want to repopulate this earth with daughters that might feel like they’re a monster? As they would inherit my traits as a woman or half man? That is only half of my struggles being a woman.

What woman has inverted nipples? When it comes to sex I am scared to take off my shirt as I don’t have normal nipples. What man is going to want a Nipple-less woman? I was always told men like big breasted women and they want to suck on your nipples. How can I tell my man that he has a woman who is nipple-less and he can’t suck on them. To make it even more depressing for myself. If I were to have a child I would struggle with breastfeeding him or her. Would the child I have, carry the same defects as me? Would having surgery boost my self confidence as a woman?

As a natural born woman do I share my thoughts with my closest friends or do I take this information to the grave? Can I even say that I am even natural if I have surgery to obtain nipples? Going through life with all these defects have made me very insecure about being intimate with someone. I struggle to be vulnerable with myself and with the person that loves me. Would he love me even less because I have PCOS, hirsutism and Nipple-less? These are the thoughts that take over my mind daily. I have breasts, vagina and ovaries that I was born with, would you consider me a natural woman with flaws or a monster?