A reflection on falling in Love

Reflecting on falling in love: after learning about him, what are your thoughts?"

As we were gathered at the coffee shop, I noticed he is sitting next to me had a big smile on his face and his eyes were wide open as he spoke to me. Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, he soon switched seats to an empty seat opposite mine, from where he looked at me many times. Every time he did so, I was at a loss for what to say in response, so I looked away. His gaze was so sharp and continuous that I couldn't maintain eye contact with him for long. I felt nervous every time he looked at me, which happened every five minutes or so.

While he was making fun of and mocking others, I sat quietly and had a normal conversation with him and others. Because of his presence, no one turned to make fun of me. He explained that he was in a hurry and that's why his outfit wasn't great, as his flight had landed just a few hours before. Despite this, many people thought he and another girl had something going on between them.

My biggest question was why he was looking at me like that? I was left wondering why he kept looking at me as if he wanted to be with me. All I could do at the time was smile and sit across from him. I could only smile and remain in my seat across from him. At the end of our gathering, he generously paid for everyone and handed out packets of chocolates, jokingly blaming them for his lack of luggage space.

The group gathered for a photo, and I stood next to the fourth person from him. He looked at me as if to say I couldn't come any closer, but I turned to face him just as someone snapped the picture. We thought that was enough, but then a lady next to me suggested we take more photos as a group. I moved to the centre of the group without realizing that he had moved to stand behind me. I was able to feel the warm ,comfort from the behind and I could hear his breathing. He was that much close to me made me feel that he also has feeling for me.As the farewell approached, everyone began to disperse. He and another guy left together, while the other girl and I hailed a cab. We exchanged brief goodbyes, and I assumed that was the end of our interaction. However, as the cab passed him on the way out, I saw him look at me and say goodbye with his eyes. Though we had not touched or kissed, the connection I felt with him was amazing. I assumed that this would be the last time we would meet, but it turned out to be just the beginning.

That is the moment of uncertainty, attraction, and hope. I’m unsure if he is attracted to shares his feelings. However, the connection I felt through the eyes gives us hope for a new beginning.

As I walked back to my dorm room, my mind was still reeling from the first impression with him. The other girl had started fighting with me, accusing me of not supporting her when she was being mocked by some other people. I was taken aback by her accusations, as I couldn’t even remember what had happened earlier. I was fully occupied by his gaze. how could I have supported her?

To make matters worse, she then called me her competitor, which was a confusing and hurtful statement. I didn’t know in what way she meant it, and it was painful to hear such words from someone I thought was my friend. In response, I tried to explain to her that whatever the others had asked her, she must have answered correctly. I couldn’t support her if she lied or said something unfair.

Feeling frustrated and upset, I returned to my dorm room, hoping to put the encounter behind me. However, it was not over yet. The other girl came to talk to me, and at first, I was hesitant to engage. But then, she told me that everything she had said earlier was just for fun and that I shouldn’t take it seriously. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.

I was confused by her sudden change of heart. I didn’t know how to respond to her, feeling like I had been poked with a pin and then buttered up. The whole situation was such a bad time for me.

As I sat alone in my dorm room, I tried to make sense of what had happened. How come a person who’s being said that he is taken already would give such a look at me. At the same time if I could have been more supportive to my friend in her time of need.

I also felt angry and resentful towards the other girl. How could she accuse me of not supporting her she wasn’t true to say answers and why would she call me her competitor when we were supposed to be friends?

In the end, I realized that sometimes misunderstandings happen, she might have seen the way he looked at me or she may be loving him secretly and people say things they don’t mean. It was up to me to decide whether to hold onto the hurt and resentment or to let it go and move on. It wasn’t easy, but I knew that I didn’t want to hold onto negative feelings and let them eat away at me.

I’ve decided that I’m going to focus on building stronger relationships with the people who truly mattered to me and worked on being more present and supportive in their lives as from what she said ,I don’t want to interfere. It was a process, but over time, I found that the hurt and frustration from that bad time began to fade away and whatever has happened was just for time being. Because I haven’t had any long or deep conversation with him before to say that yes I’m going to fall for him. Let’s time decides!