When I went for Mexico city

The reason why I went to Mexico city was always the same I wanted to be free from narcissists and to do art freely to discover new culture naively I was looking for a place where it is gonna be possible to be free from verbal violence maybe not completely but I found home in there

Mexico seemed for me like a dream I arrived in there and i just felt great since day one like walking entering my new home land

I was happy cheerful full of new life and discovery and new passion for art

I was like that but not so many were this way so my journey in Mexico had it end too but before I start I will develop some of the things that You need to first adapt in there so even though Mexico Df is not considered to be safe place I need to tell You nothing has happened to me in there. I was of course watching out dressing to fit the crowd in the very end people thought I am just from there.

I loved everything in Mexico and I was super excited for everything in there

I didnt have any problems because when I decide to travel and to move I need accept what is in there for me and adjust not the opposite

I had the best time of my life in there the best kind of people and education and teachers I need to tell I really loved the people and all the things

because I was still young kind of naive looking for love in everywhere and in everyone I meet

My struggle were just when I wanted to dive into something more than just being and living in Mexico but actually making something besides just art at home

I struggled with the transport that was just incredible when You needed to use it in the city but if for example You wanted to try to study in the Xochimilcio or any further there was always something tricky about it

To the point where I missed the metro for an entrance exam and arrived when applications were already closed.

Later on I said Okey so I will try this Xochimilco but They didnt want to agree for me to study or continue because I had already finshed four years in my origin country for them it was like already being graduated.

These were the only surprises that I encountered whole the rest I found more than just a positive experience beside some international friends that

I needed to hide from to not to go through the abuse that I run away from

Luckily there were more good people and truth real people than ever and

I was day by day encountering them and free to be friends with get to know with each other even sometimes study together and talk about more difficult issues that were coming out of our daily experiences from past and the present too as come on life is a life everywhere full of everything.

In Mexico people carry a different approach to life they go through the earthquakes periods so they learn to let go of attachments to their houses and things quite fast.

One of my friend that I lived with He lost his apartment while He was accepted for the new Academy and as a result He spend His first months of Academy at His friend's house when He talked about it, it seemed like nothing really happened and I was trying to learn such approach in my life The same was about death It was something so obvious for them that They treat everyday as a holiday as something to celebrate with even with small gestures which was a huge contrast from the European cold distant rushing culture. Now writing about it all I just begin to wonder what am I still doing in Europe?

And I know where this hesitation comes from maybe for Mexicanos earthquake is something they are born with already so they dont react like European people may or any other but I really did reacted strongly for it.

When It was just little shaking I was all right We were just going out at night and taking an order for later dinner in the local pubs which was making the incident kind of a pleasure one !

Coming back home You didnt even remember the reason of going out anymore I was more than courages that time !

However it wasnt so simple when I arrived to Mexico for the second time the very earthquake happened and later it was going through months causing fear and depression to my friend I was just carrying a shock and fear but being surrounded by so many warm people even new neighbours were giving You a friendy help and confirmed You that in any case just knock the door ! This kind of gest was something I never experienced in Europe so it was giving me the confidence the warmth the safety I felt that I never experienced in the country where I was born into.

So one of the most dangerous place on Earth became my one of the safety ones I ever lived in. As I was changing areas and apartments I started to isolate myself or taking a bit of a distance from some people that I so far met out there and I ended up in the classes of self defense but actually it was

Kung Fu Hu hook pai and I must say I loved it

We trained three days a week and the Sifu called Gandhi besides We had two more Teachers Masters from Wushu that I loved them all because I could feel How great they are in training all of us the beginners and the advanced ones. The Sifu was telling us that He trained with the same Master Teacher as Bruce Lee and believe me some training with Him were kind of scarry for me or just way too heavy for beginners but I have tried my best. Of course I wasnt the only girl but this time I was the only One blonde and the rest was from Mexico city Df. I loved the interaction with others through the Kung fu way and the respect all had for each other

It was the best school I ever had for my life later it turned into the philosophy for me but I was kicked on purpose by one Champion girl at the training. Why I do say on purpose because We had choice to kick and touch to harm or to kick without harming She definitely didnt like Her brother to be interested in me so She decided to kick me off from it all by giving me a hard time I wasn't able to walk for two weeks even though I had school and somehow needed to manage but was thrown from the training for a while.

Later on Her brother touched me with a knife on a training He was also a Champion I somehow lost trust to the Champions and I preferred when We were training with the previous older teachers even though some younger once were pretty amazing and We could improve different things but they had literally caused me so many issues that I havent been focusing more on the technic but the danger that was coming from their presence. After having some boxing training where my fingers were bleeding as of push ups on fingers. I couldnt even do simple push up at the start but here You go that was nothing comparing to Wushu which I pretty loved. Or the speed of the kicks and the 50 seconds break in between not telling about the warm up that was making Your skin great but how heavy it was haha.

Unfortunatelly I needed to quit as I was called by my family to come back to Poland when I just progressed and made myself a new home. It was one of the most healing experience for me from all the violence I had experienced. Besides some people in the class like Champions that were kind of harming ones the rest was really incredible and I loved the idea to be able to interact and fight with all of them it teaches You much more not only from the defense but from the mental side about human nature. They all treated me equal so I loved to feel this comfort but also were not treating me like some fragile girl but a real fighter haha some laughs now hahaha sorry. I really missed the classes so badly but they had no ho hook pai classes in poland at least not where I was located huge loss for me.

I somehow later kung fu my paintings as of the result.

So as You can see sure there often were nasty people but most of the other people were not abusive not nasty not bothering just giving You peace space so that You could do what You wanted in there. Most of the teachers I encountered from Universities were not only great teachers but also one of the best empathic-carrying human beings on earth I met so far. Mostly they were very inspiring because when You dont need to fear the teacher less stress makes Your brain more relaxed and focus so You really learn faster than anywhere more time left to enjoy the social life what I never could say about my polish schools or academies.

After some time I was eager to experience something from the Mexico dark side it was of course something more than silly from my side but as I had collegues at the training from different areas somehow I wasnt afraid to discover more dangerous part of Df.

Tepito there it was and believe me You need to watch out for the hour 30 minutes longer than You can actually stay in there things may shift in a speed of the light. I wasnt familiar with all the bad so I started to visit the places where there were potential danger even You could experience shot guns while running for metro or entering a Church in some places.

Mostly I was going there alone quite fast walking buying fast and coming back. It happened for me to go there with friends and discover something more till that moment nothing happened. Until the last time that shocked me that much. never came back there again I knew I will be leaving and i was keen to make photos so I decided to get out of this market area and walk a bit more in there till the murals of it the place was okey but just You did some metres more the scenes in there are like from the movies If You have watched Romeo and Julliet this didnt come from out of nowhere. One guy with a gun and another waiting just 6 metres from Him behind girl with a statue of Santa Maria. The guy face was in fear and He was praying.

We shifted to the Church slowly walking there was another guy also praying and holding a gun it wasnt a movie it was a real scenario.

Just one look at my friend and one word We need to go back metro now

It was over 14.00 usually the place should be okey until that time but 14.30 -15.00 things are getting intense. I cant even express how much peace I have tried to keep in myself but at the same time experiencing it all live.

I came back home and I was depressed for two weeks It was shocking I couldnt understand why they are doing it to themselves for what. I was trying to talk with some friends from Mexico I got no answer besides telling me how many guns their richest friends and parents do also have. Later I talked with some from Juarez they have started to share horrible experiences that happened to their friends in there.

Some things had no answer its probably something in the psychic of the human and their culture You cant explain the War but You can explain psychopaths or sociopaths or at least learn how they behave and that there is an ongoing pattern and our response to that too

I still cant access the place where I have stored more photos I only could find these one that I am sharing but thats not all I wanted to show You I also got that photos from Tepito before it all happened in there and I cant find it but if You google sure there will be plenty of Murals from there to admire.

It is the first time I am sharing such information being much older and believe me to write about both the beautiful memories and shocking strong ones is more difficult to write rather than say it this time I should take pause to digest it and release it once more

The only thing that comes to my mind is that if not art I wouldnt probably get out from the despair I felt about it. So my next weekend were only in museums and Mexico art is incredible to take You out for a different journey of the mind.

Mexico city for me was an Art place with all of the Museums and exhibitions that I happened to discover in the end of the time in there for me.

The level is just very high both at Academy and in everywhere You go in there for me the best place to progress Yourself with the whole that art can offer You in there.

For this reason I wish to just jump in there straight away and check the newest exhibition in the Museo Tamayo or another.

The most exciting place was also the Museo Antropologia for the first time in my life I enetered such a huge visiting space at least as I remembered.

I loved it all in there and how You can get to know the beginning of it all and dive I later took classes in spanish to get to know more and even though we were unable to speak spanish yet, teacher was taking us everywhere speaking in spanish for 3 hours on the go maybe it wasnt so exciting but the fact that he did it in spanish improved our abilities to speak much faster than others.

Mexico has a very modern approach in various areas like studying in there You will find yourself discovering everything that Europe is just simply not even aware of or You just need to live in Mexico to discover it all. The poetry, literature, movies it's like You gonna walk the new path of the old way. Teachers are great so You develop a new kind of Yourself and passion instead of a stress. Maybe one teacher had something to me that wasnt okey but in the end She was shocked for my progress so She changed Her opinion about me listening me while speaking to a friend in the library She couldnt believe its me. If someone put a cross on You since the beginning of a class cant expect the student to open up further. Her lost haha.

Oh the students We were like best friends I loved them All and classes with Them exams with Them time after classes. It felt the best to be connected to so many different individuals and with whole find our own language. We had great time and joy studying together improving together !

I also took classes from dance and Yes I needed to go through all the history of a dance and beginner classes which I pretty much loved and of course I made a new circle of friends there too so that was really great

There was a couple from San Francisco She was and still is so beautiful and to see Them dancing together so perfectly passionate and in love was a joy for all of us in the group I guess. I was just learning in there It was my first time dancing and learning salsa and I prefer the modern haha still though. Later whenever there was a party You could shine because the steps are very easy.

I will be probably coming back to my Mexico story as It is not possible to just throw all the things just like that.

The food in Mexico was quite a challenge for my stomach at first I loved the places the atmosphere it was an entire movie for me but just one small minus the food was full of sugar or more than just spicy so if You struggle with sensitive stomach or any other issues You will need to watch out where You are going to eat. When I arrived in there for the second time the trend of Vegan places were quite in its peak so You will definitely find Your way through it.

The local food is amazing the food from villages and the modern way of a kitchen in there so there are so many various places to check and as everywehre You will meet this friend that love the trend of discovering new places with new food besides Your own curiosity it is just good to try all new during the first months of living in there but You can also go for local frutis and veggies and cook at home. Thats cheaper option but if You are going out in Mexico You need to eat on the way the distances are quite a distances so if it goes about that plan Your meals after you are familiar with it all

You need to try the blue tacos they are made with special mix of corn and something I cant provide You in details but You will maybe discover the origin of it on Your own. That was my first meal in there and I will never forget the look of the place the street the woman and the colour of it It was with cheese and my stomach felt weird but I was happy to tried it and I was coming back for it each week.

In the morning You can buy fresh mango or oranges just waiting for You in the corner already cut and put in a bigger cup so it is a great start for a day.

In Mexican style You just go to the bar and You sit as if nothing suppose to be happening in Your life You wait for the lazy person who will finally bring You the coffe and some muffins or cynamon biscuits so If you are running for classes You need to buy the coffe in there during a break. You will also be able to buy quick soup many people from China were starting their day from hot soup which is more than healthy than coffe, capuccino with churro ! haha the famous most sugary like sweet i think the end of food in Mexico has no end and I am not here to write a book about it because that would be a very tasty story in between the traditional and modern way of serving the food in Mexico just there are so many different kinds of coffes and churros and sweets and tacos and all kind of other food that for example the churro and coffe from Narvarte is not the same that You gonna experience in Coyoacan the way it is prepared and actually Coayoacan is very famous place to try Coffe and sweets. That was my first impression at the start I also loved all the hidden small places that only I discovered at least I wasnt meeting there anyone that I already met which You couldnt say about famous places to drink coffe or eat there You will always meet someone from school or other circle of friends. So it was up to You always but also a kind always a new discovery of something not tasted before in the modern part of Mexico the trend was for a tea that had three levels of it and it happened to be better choice for me so finally in the very end of my journey in there I found some chinese and japanese shops where I could alone try new taste of it.

Mexico is one of these places where when You spend time with people You may find yourself oh how small Mexico Df really is we all know each other and it may even after a year be a kind of boring for You but once You get out of th cicle and the mindset of others You will discover things that You havent yet and the journey may start from the new over and over again

My social life in there was the best and the most colorful one I ever had in my life. I literally needed to hide myself on some weekends. Sometimes I wasnt able as some people knew where I live. I am not a party person or so maybe at times I like to socialise but i need also recover rest and analyze a lot draw and paint and to cope with it all plus studying it wasnt easy for me mainly as Mexico is a huge city so I kind of was an expert to know all these more silent places all over the other places to get some rest.

When I needed I was just going for a party since the day one it was like that in there already invited by an unknown people and friends. A 10 years older friend and the first thing that is happening for You in there someone is receiting whole of the poem of polish poet Wislawa Szymborska just like that people are singing and its quite fun later when You know spanish You can finally speak about everything with everyone if You are going for a party full of just Mexicans. They will make You feel like You are one of them their long-lasting friend.

Recovering from Europe feeling great and also not because the cultural shock and social one was huge as usual so its good if You are able to adapt quite fast and be open for new people and new experiences. When I am just writing about it I feel like I am living in a prison of European mentality and some kind of the most violent environment and I remembered telling my teacher how hard life was for me in Poland and I need to say nothing has changed it is even much worser much harder now. If not my new discoveries in life ufff. I cant even recall how many times I wanted to be back in Mexico.

What I remember about the things that were quite challenging was

the metro and the amount of people inside of it, We were thrown like cans inside and I have no idea how as highly sensitive I never had a problem with it until the first time I got sick.

It was the only time I almost fainted if the door were not opened in a second and I was trying to remember how is help in spanish to in case managed to loudly say it when I am just about to say loudly '' Ayuda por favor " the door suddenly opened instead of bright light and fever I was left with just a fever and could see and walk to the school and it was quite a longer walk and managed to take an exam drinking yerba mate just before it. We had a doctor and clinic just some metres from school so it was fast an easy connection which is more than a plus. The doctors were really good we often shared our experiences in school because if You are an empath or highly sensitve the way Your body react for all the new is a different way than another so the doctors were already familiar with plenty of great natural advices in meals and they did work fast to recover.

My another time I got scarred in Mexico besides Tepito the metro was at night when I listened to screams as if someone was taking away a skin from another and it was terrifying to listen non of my neighbours were calling anyone I went to ask Who is that ? but people were acted as if I should pretend nothing is happening in there so I just hide myself and waited till the morning. There was a huge police car full of a group of policemans outside my house as the last area where I lived probably was more of a danger but they also stayed without being bothered so I think sometimes nobody can react which of cause left me in a sleepless nights for couple of days until I was meeting and going out with some friends again.

Living in three different apartments in there I was lucky and happy to get to know a quite different areas of Mexican life it does differ a lot in people and environment in Narvarte people live more close to each other but not close as in relation and not that warm Hi and welcome is enough. If You happen to live next to musician that plays in some restaurants You gonna listen the same piano version many hours a day but that was my sound of the environment I was in at I actually loved it. In Coyoacan people, neighbours were the same friendly as in the last area where I lived unfortunatelly cant recall it beside the pictures of the place in my head.

In Coyoacan You could feel the difference between local people and international in Narvarte I couldnt differ it in the last place I lived in just connection with the neighbours and the guy from the bus as the area was for more privat more intimate kind of living which of cause had it pluses and minuses still some friend managed to crush in on weekends so Mexico is full of surprises.

What I loved about the apartment I had in there was that all of them were pretty cozy and close to public transport and safe but the one just steps away from the famous Coyoacan center had the worst gate ever. It was not comfortable to enter especially at night to open the door You needed to open from behind so if there was someone out there You will probably not have time to run away on time not telling about opening it haha. When I was coming back from trainings that was a challenge as the place where I trained was quite far from where I lived I was going almost through whole the Mexico to reach there. Three kind of different buses and short walk but as the training was finishing at 22.30 I was reaching my place quite late already ready to protect myself but the adrenaline was high reaching the gate opening fast later fast close and open the door and run stairs to open the door to the apartment was a challenge each time.

Luckily nothing happened to me.

In the very end as usual of living in there I even discovered a center with material for art in the last month of it which was the only thing I regretted not finding before.

To the contrary once I needed to rent a flat very far away from the center so I was loosing contact with all the groups as at night I wasnt able to travel 2-3 hours by bus. Sometimes We were quiting to meet as of my locations but I actually did travel sometimes and it wasnt something to make me feel so happy about myself even trying it and visiting friend from a completely different area where bus wasnt going through the center of the city but in some deserted places that I never saw before. One time I went for such travel as it wasnt just a two hour trip I ended up in changing the buses in a really scarry places and it was already getting dark on the way back.

Thanks God I had good friend and She called me and asked that If I want to She will come with Her Husband and take me from the nearest stop because accidentally my other friend also went for this area and they are on their way so God was always there with me to protect or send people on my way.

Something similar even worser happened to me in China I just literally missed the stop at night and was alone with a driver in some village but in China I wasnt afraid at all He just took me back for another stop and I took a taxi but in Mexico taxi wasnt an option to take just like that. I had one rule being alone even with some friends never taking a taxi when really not needed. One rule never ever taking a taxi alone if possible. The only exception was the expensive taxi from the airport or while moving from one place to another this kind of taxi were from trusted companies advised by friends. One of my friend from China She was always taking a taxi while coming back from Museum but it was not necessary during a day.

Only in India I had similar friends also in China some where like that but never in Europe so I should actually consider leaving from here quite soon again. Healthy warm hearted environment that cares for Your life and health is much more important than anything You will get in this life.

Mexico was fantastic full of love happiness also the dark side and the depression at some harder times but always You were going out of it all for the healing light!

I also remembered getting to know the traditional ones and being invited for dinner at times and it felt more than just nice. I was eating and getting to know the taste of the food of their original villages and their stories and wisdom of life.

Waiting for the food to be prepared I happened to always watch Mexican tv and discovered so many great artists again I found Mexico one of the most creative place on Earth and people were really doing things as alive as life itself.

It feels so good to write about Mexico and feel the warmness out of there the food the people also the people from the streets each person were kind and interesting to meet

One of the best places to live and it's an even more fairytale one if You don't know the Spanish but You just learn it there.

I was lucky to live in Narvarte also as of the fact that the area around it was like out of the movie and when I took a walk on Sunday I found a small cafe far away where I was reading poesie and translating it eating a huge creamy cake. Later I turn around and found myself walking straight to the beautiful forms of white chapel the church that my friend was residing in was the one they have recorded Romeo and Julia and since that moment I entered it I was more than amazed and in love with Mexico city once more so the love was just growing each time I discovered new places new worlds of mine and people

a place to discover on Your own!

The only thing I will now laugh about was that when I lived in Narvarte I lived with a cat who just loved to sleep on me and on my laptoop destroying all even my luggage but it was hilarious and good to have such an animal called Hector

I often couldn't sleep at night as I needed to take care that Hector won't jump out of the window there it was too hot to keep it close and there was no secure chequered pattern for him to protect in case of jumping. The owner was jealous that He loves me more but cats They do really love me I noticed it being 13 years older quite a lot of time lived without one

Now I have just two left I think the only reason why I am not back in there in Df yet are the cats.

Just now I reminded myself something to still share in here I just loved to wait for the bus in Mexico Df to come and sit with people while the driver would always put His favorite song and sing to them driving loudly to the very end and giving a great laugh to enjoy for a while and You always needed to carry a change to buy tickets in there.

Life was not a speed not a rush but a relaxed comfort happy moment in time of the now

The only rush was to get on the bus on time for a training and for the school but the transport was mostly coming one after another so there was no issue about it.

What I love about Mexico that people unite together to manifest to celebrate to enjoy the life !

Mexico at night is my favourite place to walk around it is so magical even if You are passing by the same street it was never the same the experience the people the feeling.

The nature in Mexico is an amazing experience I was there when I was quite young so I actually was more a city girl during that time now I for sure would explore and enjoy more the nature in there than I actually did while I lived there.

Maybe something to explore next !

Maybe sometimes You needed to watch out at night but if You did it was safe something I can not share about Europe

All of my friends from Mexico they still live in there and still can laugh about it all the same way as We used to do spending time together experiencing new things daily.

Thank You so Much for Your Reading, Tips & Likes much Love and Big Heart to Your side !