The Dairy of Lily Slytherin: Part 5

Dear Diary,

It’s already been three weeks in the school year! I feel like this year is going slower than I thought. Somedays it feels like one day equals two days, but it helps to have awesome friends in my classes. I’m sorry I haven’t been writing lately. John and I have been exploring the castle. We are trying to find every passageway possible. I think we are pretty close, based on what Godric told me. My godparents love to help me whenever they can, but when they catch you in the Ravenclaw common room it’s kind of hard to keep them happy. I sneak in there sometimes when I’m scared, so Helena can protect me from everything. I got told to be careful next time I try to sneak into the common room. If only they knew what happened in the Slytherin common room.

I am not scared of storms or anything like that. I am scared of threats from people who hate me, like Kendreth. When I hear people making threats about hurting me during the night, I sneak into Helena’s room so she can protect me. Being the strange girl with her own room makes me the perfect target for threats. I have spent most of the week in Helena’s room. Ever since I refused to torture the half-blood, Kendreth has now become my enemy. I am not scared of her, but I try to keep John near me at all times. I mean I try to keep all my friends around at all times. Combined, me and my friends are the equivalent of a grown wizard. Kendreth Malfoy can’t possibly beat that, right? I should talk to Godric and see if someone can guard my room at night. I don’t think she would actually hurt me, but you never know what could happen.

Let’s move on to something happier. My friends and I have been hanging around the grounds during free time. They are the reason I like Hogwarts so much. The only thing I find strange is that I am hanging out with my brother more than I thought I would. I guess that’s the price of being at the same school. We used to never talk. Now we talk a little. He only hangs out with me when Baron comes to talk. I love it when everyone gets along. Well, Baron and Helena don’t get along, because Baron keeps trying to ask Helena out. She hates it and him. I wish they would get along for the sake of our friend group, but I feel like that will not happen anytime soon. I also feel like Baron will not stop trying to get Helena.

Speaking of that, John and I have gotten closer in the last week. I think I’m his only friend because I don’t see him around any other guys in the Slytherin house. I don’t think he likes his roommates very much. It's hard for me to see him suffer. Every morning that I’m not in the common room, I feel like he is disappointed. Helena says she senses more there than just friendship. But we are only 11. It is way too early to be thinking about that. Right? Anyway, John has been super nice to me and has helped me ignore Kendreth.

Maddie has been absolutely wonderful when we hang out together, but she seems distant. She is the only one in our friend group who doesn’t know who I really am. I think she can sense that we are all hiding something. It’s easy and hard to do this. There are a ton of subjects to talk about, but when she mentions my childhood I try hard to change the subject. It also seems like she is embarrassed to be seen with John and me. She doesn’t make eye contact with me when she is hanging out with her Gryffindor friends. Maddie has been hanging out with Helena more often. Thank you Helena for telling me. It seems like she is just tired of me, but I think it will be ok in the end. At least that is what John says.

Hogwarts has been a lot this week mostly because of all the drama. Between the Slytherins, my classes, and what has happened with Maddie. Sometimes I wish I could relax in my room, write and be with my thoughts, but it seems that everyone needs me at every point in the day. Don’t get me wrong I love all the parts of Hogwarts that come with being a student. I want to feel safe in my own common room or at least know that in my hiding spot, I will be alone. I should have never shown John how to get in there. He walks in every time I get there. I think John needs to make friends with his roommates. Honestly I love hanging out with him but some alone time is good for everyone.

My parents have been writing to me every week and sometimes every other day. In my father’s letters, he is very strict and reminds me to keep my back story going. It feels like he doesn’t care about his only daughter. He is just like every other famous person, self-centered. The only thing he cares about is his reputation. On the other hand, my mother’s letters are very kind and loving. Obviously, she is my favorite parent. Every day she would talk with me and make me feel loved in a situation that was lonely. I can tell through her letters that she misses having a child at home to keep her company. I wish my father could love me like that. To be honest, they both make me feel like nothing at times. I am the outcast of every group I’m in except my friend group.

My godparents ask me often how I’m doing. I always tell them the truth, because they dislike my father so they won’t tell him how I feel about him. It’s nice to know I have a support group at school. I don’t feel so alone anymore. I finally feel like I am loved and cared for. Maybe it’s not so bad that my friends want to hang out all the time. Goodbye, I’m gonna go find my lovely friends and see if they are free.

Sincerely,

Lily Slytherin

Daughter of Salazar Slytherin