Boundless

I've touched many things in my life, but in this era love has been more so a gift more than anything else. The winds comfort my sorrows, when the rain falls, we cry together. When I have felt alone in a state of demise, something inside me pressures the purpose of life and the light within I have suppressed for many years. What a beautiful pain it is to breathe despite everything around me. I have felt alone, and maybe I am so, out in the cold. Until warmth finds me, I shall have a heart of ice to keep myself alive. What else am I supposed to do in this cold but survive? I met someone long ago but, our existence together begs many questions in my mind.

Memories can be beautiful yet painful. To tell the truth I'm stuck on a few, believing reality isn't much but dust in the winds of time.

"You're a very vigorous person, say Cassius?" "Perhaps, say, if I'm vigerous, what does that make you?" Cassius smirked. "Gentle, like the wind as it whispers it's guidance sharing which direction I ought to turn to." Serene responded hastily. "I ought to seize the day from underneath you." Cassius whipered seductively while grabbing Serene's waist from behind. My thoughts on the matter: "How cute, he's arrogant and a brute who's full of himself. How charming.'' I didn't realize I had blurted such an idea out, " I was just teasing." Serene spoke covering her mouth baffled by the words she had spoken without realizing they weren't words silently spoken in mind, but by mouth. "What are we?" Cassius asked taking Serene's hand into his. "Turn to the stars and ask them that question, I cannot say for certain, but I can guarantee they will give you an answer. I turn to the winds for direction remember?" Serene whispered. She spoke her truth and drifted off into the winds before Cassius could realize she had vanished from his presence. "Where are you off to?" he whispered as if she could still hear him, as if she was still near him. To his suprise, she did hear him despite being miles away. "I've given you the answers, just not the ones you wanted." she laughed in the winds that pressed upon Cassius's skin. She was not seen or heard from for a long time after she had vanished. Cassius held onto the memory of her until her return. Tranquillitas et cava: the calm and hollow, a thoughtless but meaningful term. He waited patiently for her return, but spoke wishes of not just seeing her again, but wishing her well also. He was madly in love with her it was unfathomable. What to do with the borrowed time he held in his hands until then. Serene was always around watching his every move, but from a distance in flesh. "To tell the truth I'm afraid of love." she whispered to the winds as if Cassius could hear her from the distance they faced. She wished to be courageously in love and some day she would be, but the time was not now. Why, well her lovers prior were filled with lies, great betrayal and of nothingness by the end when she realized how much she had poured out for them. Controlling all that was of her just to keep her like a trophy they could only win. Serene was more than a mere object and her feelings and thoughts were of value, but none made her feel human like Cassius did. All her feelings and yet she was terrified to try once more. The ultimate problem was she couldn't let him go, and that was troublesome for her in many ways. He reigned within her mind, she held him so high while she fell into the depths of the ocean for him. "What are his thoughts of me in this way I wonder?'' she pondered. It had been years since they last spoke, but she wanted the truth and not to waste it. "Should I find the courage to be in love and take him on like I have with others, or pour myself out slowly so he might cherish every drop?" Serene pondered. She passed him by without him realizing it was her, his beloved.. Memories once more from conversations long ago: "Don't be so coy Cassius, because even if I were interested, there are still many fish, but I'd drown for all in the same way as I have before you." Serene pushed his loving embrace away denying love in all it's forms. That's all Cassius was, made from love by scratch, a dear sweetheart. She didn't lie to herself for thinking so highly of him and feeling her love for him. She was scared to reciprocate all that was in his loving embrace. She looked in the opposite direction from her love and smirked, she couldn't help but feel happy. He couldn’t help but feel her peace she was made of. She could put him to sleep, while she could be energized to give him that. The connection they felt for one another here in the meadow they always met at was a fairytale of sorts for many. They both called each other home within souls structured by bones. Foundations of innocence it felt like just to caress one another while being held. "Come back to me Serene, I need you, and the truth." he spoke softly while seeming to be downcasted. "I will do so for you as you would do for me, I swear it my love." she appeared with a vow. Cassius swept her off her feet just to show how missed she was. "I've longed for your presence Serene, where did you go?" he asked with hurt in his voice. She felt this hurt with all of her being and explained the truth in full. " Not far, "Ive always been near you, you just never noticed me, it hurt to be a ghost in memory." she muttered while turning to look at the sky. She felt ready for once despite how insane and terrified she felt. "Truth, just give him that peace he asked of me." she whispered to herself before turning back to him. “I’ve instilled the memory of you within me, why were you far from me?” Serene asked with her eyes hanging low flooded with sorrow. “I could ask you the same Serene, but I will say, be not far from me, for I am yours and yours alone and you are mine.” He shared the same sorrows but picked her chin up so their eyes met when speaking such words.

A moment of love and pain shared. Their souls ached for one another. They knew deep down they couldn’t be without each other, it didn’t make sense. They shared this moment as if was their last.