ZIA

My Life vitae

A child learn everything from their parents.. their mentality develops watching his / her parents. That child grows up in the society following their parents.. But their parents sometimes just leave in a place where they feel left alone .. That’s what happened to me .. I am girl from a small country where we are just considered to fulfill my parents dream so that they can make me presentable in front of the society as a prize . I always wanted to be a business woman but they pushed me towards another subject and I became a dull student . They weren’t there when I needed them most. All of my friends left me cause I couldn’t compete with their intelligence. I became a scumbag for everyone.. but I didn’t lose hope on myself.. I continued to do my work and gave the best efforts I could.. I became stablished and left my country, my root because I needed to be alive. All my life I was burden. I had zero capability to make my parents happy.. they used to torture me mentally. They compared me with the people I loved and made me hate myself so much that Sometimes I thought not to live anymore.. But I didn’t loose hope . I turned off my heart, ear and throat , I kept myself quiet to make my actions loud . There wasn’t a single person beside me to make me belittle in myself. No one was there to experience the small happiness I used to earn by myself. No one was there to give me a shoulder in my misery phrase.. All of them benched me in a corner like a sack of bag , left me like I was nobody to them . I didn’t loose at the end , they lost me , like forever..I have two more sisters . They are also too young to be independent. I help them secretly to live their best possible life . My father became a less strict because I made him watch my success. I proved him wrong. After All the things they did to me , I survived. I made myself promise to make them proof wrong, to shine in life , to make myself proud and guess what I am so much proud of myself. Now I live in a small house by myself alone . Now I got a friend to talk with me . She is so kind and helpful to me taht I feel so blessed and happy. She made me feel like a home . she is a sister to me .. Also, I go to therapy to keep myself happy. My parents don’t effect me anymore.I didn’t cut off them , but sometimes they feel guilty for the things they did to me , made me feel . They don’t say it but their actions talks loud. I started loving myself and self love made me realise that I wasn’t the one who wasn’t perfect, My family, Society and friends couldn’t just figure my best version… No one should loose hope on themselves because at the end it’s only you versus the whole world.. believe in yourself.. and Always believe in the Creator who made us .. He will make our journey easier if only we stick with his orders and follow our dream . No one have the rights to judge you , You aren’t them ! That’s the moto of the happiest life .