Tameka Blackshire

True Love

Falling in love is easy its the staying in love that is hard. In the beginning everything seems perfect. The twinkle in the eyes when you look at each other, the hope in your voice, the promises in the words that the other one speaks. Everything seems so wonderful. Oh but when reality sinks in and some weeks turn into a few months the hard core truth sets in. You soon find out everything isn't perfect. You catch a lump in your throat and find it hard to breath as you see and hear the very things you were promised not to .For me it was a messages on social media app. I was sitting in awe and the best line they could come up with now is I am sorry.. My response is yes I know you are very sorry that I cared enough to pay attention on this very day My questions then are what are you sorry for? For being attracted to someone else ,or direct messaging her on the thought? . So where to go from here? The person that I fell in love with the same person I thought was in love with me too. Is asking for forgiveness over and over again. My smart mouth snaps what do you want me to forgive the act of you wanting to hangout with someone else or the fact that I found out. In a way I feel crazy when I say everyone is not alike there are some different kind of people out here. I happen to be one of them. I have heard my elders say boys will be boys and that sometimes if you just wait they will grow up and all the games will get played out. But I am at the age where I have let too many boy be boys. That is why I get tired because I thought I had a real man for a change. But instead he was a boy in a mans frame. With this being said I'm going to go deeper into my story. God built me different he built me with True Love in mind. God gave me a big heart to love all and a kind soul to forgive. I am a forgiving person, but I am not forgetful. So for now I'm going to close my eyes tight and ask for guidance for the path I shall take. Pull together or break apart. Those are the only two ways to go. After crying yelling and screaming. I made a list. I can honestly say that the good out weighs the bad this time. Like I said before I am built different I am True Love. I learned where ever I go it is there with in me everyday. I'm not going to lie it is easier to give advice then find it for myself. Not going to lie it becomes hard to listen to myself when you can't see things clearly. Sometimes music helps to heal the soul. Sometimes it can bring back bad memories. Writing helps me sometimes too. After I have wrote down everything that has happened I can sit down and put the pieces together. Just sit and see where things might have went left. When i knew things wasn't right. Not blaming myself one bit just seeing if there could have been some maybes or what ifs. So yes I stayed around. Not because of the I'm sorry ,but because of the True Love and good times. Those are genuine. In my eyes anyway, but that is all that it matters to any way. I am only one that has to deal with it. Thanks For Reading.