Shauna Hyde

Cutting A New Life

It had been a terrible few years filled with unspeakable troubles and events and I knew I was starting to sit down. You know, the kind of sit down you don't stand back up from. The kind of sit down where all your fight and motivation and dreams sit down too and all you're left with is the sitting and the doneness of life. I knew I could not sit down. Somewhere on a deep gut level I was still ready to stand up so I stood up. I walked out to the field behind the house and slowly, laboriously walked to the top of the hill. I stood at the top of the hill gasping for air, bent over from achy muscles that had sat for too long, and looked down. I saw a gently sloping hill of grass and remembered an old dream. When I looked at the hill through the vision of that old dream, I saw a lavender field.