
S. L.
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Aspiring novelist; full time procrastinator.
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Covert Love
This year on New Year's Eve it was different, I hadn’t been alone since I was 16 and before that I had family celebrations, even if I had a severe dislike of my family’s way of celebrating, I wasn’t truly alone. I’d love to say that I had a great reason for my recent break-up, like he cheated and disrespected me so I get to be my own hero, but it is all circumstantial when you like the idea of children and not the actual wanting them, all the while believing it meant you did. What I really wanted was to make him happy and realizing that if I went on as I was, I’d end up with a husband I resented along with the picture-perfect lifestyle I detested. Most probably a divorce and a sad man that feels wronged when I give the truth so late, he doesn’t deserve that. It’s not that I am inherently anti, I simply never wanted this responsibility and with the impact a delusion of a loving family I never had, mine would suffer immensely. So, the truth of my wants left me on my balcony, holding my roommate’s cat so he could see the fireworks over the city. He didn’t like the commotion, but the cuddles won out.
By S. L.4 years ago in Motivation