Some of my thoughts about feeling
There is a whole world inside of us, and only when I started therapy I allowed myself to enter that world. Allowing myself to feel and validate my emotions and experiences has changed my life. Honouring all of my feelings has helped me recover from my struggles with eating disorders. Learning to be vulnerable takes practice. I had to learn to release the shame I felt about myself, my experiences and my emotions. The shame I felt around my body, my thoughts - I felt like I had to hide parts of myself - my shadow side. My heart began to soften and I felt so much pain arising within me, pain that has been suppressed for so many years. Feelings that have been bottled up, out of fear of beeing rejected or seen as “weak”, “too sensitive”. I feel sorry for my younger self, I want to hug her and tell her that it is okay to feel. I want to tell her that there is nothing wrong with her and that her experiences are valid. Therapy was the first time in my life that my feelings were validated. I was allowed to feel and to talk. My feelings weren’t seen as a burden, they were the key to my healing.
