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How to get rid of the language violence of the native family?

My problem may not be the worst, but I really put up with it for more than a decade! In the years when I was in junior college and she worked the hardest, there was always some unknown evil fire on me. The two times that impressed me the most were one day when she forgot to boil water after school and immediately kicked the hot water bottle under the bed after scolding. The other time, I also forgot the reason why I wanted to jump down from the fifth floor when the quarrel ended. I remember I was halfway out, and my dad pulled me back in... She is always so mean, always so indifferent to other people's feelings, and says what she wants to say... Sometimes I really can't stand it, in fact, there is nothing in the eyes of outsiders, is a quarrel between parents, but I really think it is the destruction of the spirit, all kinds of language like a knife a knife to scratch all parts of my body, and then can not resist, can only bear! But also slowly let themselves adapt to or learn to tolerate, always thinking that in the future have their own family and leave this home will be fine... Who knows, never get rid of, blame yourself not worthy, why will always cling to her life, even after marriage is so, the mother-in-law is not willing to take the children, the husband is abroad all year round, I want to work, only she... I am grateful to her, so I take the initiative only when it comes to spending money, whether it is for household expenses or for her clothes. But, it's always about the little things, the little unexpected things... I remember once, because of the children's food, I said that it might not be good to do this or that, and then I angered her. I said that I would have to do it myself later, but sometimes I was careful enough, because for so many years, I knew her temper and would pay attention to her words, because the quarrel after provoking her would not be about the current issues. She is always involved in all kinds of things, all kinds of language sharp, let people unable to refute, there is no way to refute, whenever the quarrel is too much, I always drive out alone to find a quiet place, do not want to contact me... I also admit, I have a bad temper, I have control! But I really can't stand sarcasm, sarcasm... I can pretend not to hear, but, I really can't bear the time, I will explode, I want to get out of this environment, I thought about taking the baby to live out, but every time I told my father, he always advised me, after so many years, you don't know what her temper is, bear it, just ignore him, If you move out, the neighbors will laugh, etc... Repeated tolerance in exchange for more verbal abuse, so that now will scold me **b, just think, a mother scold his daughter **b really can endure it... Because you don't wipe the water stains on the floor immediately after you take a shower, you say you don't take care of the house, you don't care about the house, etc. Etc. I really don't understand, you don't immediately clean the ground is necessary to say that? I'm 30 years old, I'm an adult, I'm not fit for a child, I'm not a child to be scolded, to be spurned, and for some reason I didn't get the water stains out right away, and it was because I took the baby out of the shower and I got dressed and I was touching my skin care, and she started telling me to do things, and she said a couple of things in one breath, you go blow dry the baby's hair, Clear the table, fix the washing machine... As I was drying the baby's hair and taking the hair dryer to the bathroom she started saying, look at the water on the floor, you don't own the house, you don't take it seriously blah blah blah blah blah. I don't know if you know what that is, when there are dishes left unwashed, clothes left unwashed, etc., etc., and you're doing everything slowly, and then she has to come out and say you did this, you did that, you don't do this, you don't do that... Sometimes it's really annoying to hear that!! I want to say, these things, you don't say I can really do... Every weekend in order not to look so free that she think I I rest at home instead of playing, I always find something to do, tidy up all kinds of places... Who knows all the last exchange is she said I don't do anything... I don't know what's wrong with me. I try to keep everything from being the cause of a fight, but it's impossible. When she's upset, I do everything wrong! I want to leave, I want to leave this family... Every time I'm called worthless, I don't know what I'm living for... I tried to make it up to her, but in the end, he would always talk about it, and it felt like a threat, like no matter what she was, no matter what she was wrong or whatever, I had to put up with it! I'm really tired. I don't want to do this! Sometimes after work I always don't want to go back so early to face her, always parked on the side of the road in a daze... Why is this so, and why is it subjected to such verbal violence