Reagan Jensen
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Canadian writer posting short stories and quotes all formed within my vast mind.
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Reawaken
-*When a person makes you feel something inside that you haven't felt in years: Your soul reawakens, the life within your eyes beam, and the passion burns ever so brightly, but most importantly, you radiat with a pure form of happiness; a reality that can not be tainted. A commodity no one has been able to achieve. For you, my dear, have reignited something that I, for one, was so certain died a long time ago.*-
By Reagan Jensenabout a year ago in Poets
The Fire That Never Diminished
I watched the flames dancing in the wind, as I sat there staring into the fiery abyss. I could feel their eyes watching me as I quietly spoke "I just don't understand". Wren softly speaking back "They would have continued lying, had you not found out and continued to call them out". My eyes remained on the fire crackling in front of me, sighing in disappointment I looked over at Wren and then over at Bowden, who's amber eyes met mine, as he smiled meekly, seeing the sympathy and pain in his eyes. My face remained blank and defeated, I felt numb. Laying back, I looked up towards the night sky, seeing the stars twinkle I muttered "There just has to be something I'm missing". I folded my hands together, laying them across my stomach, feeling the warm embrace of the fire. I could hear the empathy in Wren's voice as he said "You saw the light that so brightly is ignited within you that it was portrayed within the darkness in him". I lightly scoffed then, my heart heavy as I said back, almost disgusted with myself "But that's what I always do, you'd think I'd learn". That's when Bowden chimed in "That isn't something to be ashamed of, my dear. You will always attract the weak, no matter what you do, your authenticity is something the world craves and wishes so immensely to have themselves." Wren nodded in agreement as he added "What you hold is truly powerful, something beyond astounding and there will always be those who are intimidated and consumed by it, to which they then hope to strip it of you in order to gain for themselves." I chuckled then, appalled, with discontent wondering as I asked "But why try and steal that from me, why not embrace it and let it make them become better, so we can become great together; as one?" Wren said wisely "Do not let the corruption of others detour or falter you, the weak and cowardly can never take accountability to their own misery, let alone their own misdoings and when someone else shines too brightly they can not handle the reality of what it takes to be better or to hold it; let alone have someone else stand out the way you do." He smiled then "You always see the better part of someone, even when, they, themselves can't fathom, let alone, recognize it." I closed my eyes for a moment, taking a deep breath in, slowly letting it escape from my lips. Bowden whispered softly "Everything will be alright, you will be alright, you always are". I opened my eyes again, fixated on the stars against the dark night sky, my lips quivering in shame "I'm so tired of this, of repeating the same heartache in everyone, just always happens to be a different face. I saw the signs and yet I still ignored them anyway". I spoke, disheartened, almost desperately as I questioned, "But when will it be my turn? To find my safe haven... my peace?" I could hear the sincerity in Bowden's voice as he said "Sometimes the heart needs time to catch up with what the mind already knows to be true." I could feel Wren's deep green eyes on me as he said "Bowden's right, you already knew deep down, but your heart wanted so desperately to be proven wrong". As he continued proudly "You have grown so much, you saw right through the lies and the character he attempted to portray and he knew that." Bowden let out a chuckle then, as he said "He faltered far too quickly, you beamed with so much radiance he couldn't handle it and he knew he couldn't contain you, he knew he had lost you, so he resorted to what they always do". I listened quietly and smiled then, still staring up at the dimly lit sky. He gently leaned over and playfully nudged me "Hey, at least you didn't shed a tear this time, you did everything you could to make things right and as soon as you realized the abuse and it's utter dismay, you left right when you needed to". I laughed then, in agreement, while saying "Right? Progress". Bowden and Wren both smiled contently, I knew they were proud of me and that everything was going to be more than okay. I sat up then, slightly leaning back, letting the blades of grass entangle between my fingers and said "It's funny because I'm not even sad or hurt, I'm just disappointed that he turned out like the rest of them". They were both looking at me, as Wren replied knowingly "Oh I know and that in and of itself speaks volumes". I felt the smile spread across my face, grateful, as I continued "It's just paving the way in the right direction and I know and believe that to be true". I saw their smiles get bigger as they both nodded in agreement as Wren said "We love you and we will always be here for you, no matter what". I could feel the warmth in my heart flood my body for the sheer thankfulness at having them by my side. "I love you guys too, so very much". The smiles remained on our faces as the three of us looked up towards the star filled sky, for we knew that everything happens for a reason and that greater things were coming.
By Reagan Jensenabout a year ago in Fiction
Deep Blue
They say she is of the deep blue. For an ocean lies within her heart; a vast depth of the beautiful, dark, mysterious unknown. A world of insight in which you will never truly come to know or understand. It is much too large and undefined, because she'll either push you afloat gently with her grace or crush you with empowering waves of deceit.
By Reagan Jensen2 years ago in Poets
He Left Me To Die
I stood there, staring off into the distance, entranced and feeling disconnected. The tears slowly falling from my eyes as I quietly spoke "He betrayed me." Glyra was standing there along side me, he looked over in my direction, his soft brown eyes observing my broken and disarrayed face. He could feel my heart ache, the pain, as I continued "He promised he would never...and yet here we are... once again." He continued to watch me, as he sighed deeply in contempt." Let's be honest, my dear, we knew this was going to happen." I scoffed then as the tears continued to flow, gazing at him, my eyes beaming for answers as I said "But did we really?" His eyes met mine as I whispered "This was never supposed to happen." He looked down then for just a brief moment, as if trying to find the right thing to say to me. Glancing back up towards me he spoke softly "You are stronger than this. This is nothing but a mere test to make sure you are ready." I laughed then, disgusted at his accusations as I said back " A test? A test for what? He was NOTHING like them and then out of nowhere, he left...." I could feel my heart breaking then, the anguish in my voice, the disbelief as I said "He left me to die." You could see the sympathy in his eyes as he stared at me, but you could hear the brokenness in his words as he replied "Then that's all you needed to know" only to stop for a brief moment and then continuing, trying to ease into the truth "He's not the one." His words cut like a knife through my heart and yet, I knew them to be true. I knew he was right and yet I couldn't come to terms with it. Letting a painful sigh escape my lips, I fell to the ground, holding my heart with my left hand, grasping tightly I cried out in agony "But I loved him!" He watched me, the pain and guilt written all over his face because he knew there was nothing he could do to ease the torment. He whispered then, the gentleness in his voice as he said "My dear, if a man leaves you to die, he is not the one. He is nothing but a mere coward because he, himself, wasn't strong enough to be there for you as he had promised. He is a liar and you, my love, you deserve the world and so much more. You know that." I looked up at him then, my eyes red from the tears, I mumbled brokenly "I just wanted him to be the one... like I thought he was." He smiled meekly at me then, because he knew how desperately I wanted and needed this as he said "I know and one day, it will happen. I promise." I glanced back towards the ruffled surface of the earth, my eyes dancing back and forth trying to come to terms with what he was saying. Looking back up at him one last time I said "For once in my life, I thought this was it, I let myself love again when I told myself I would never and I did... but for what?" He could see the pain in my blue eyes as I questioned him "Tell me, Glyra"- as I screamed "For what?!" Grasping the dirt within my hands, I continued to scream in agony, the heart ache becoming too much at the realization I had been betrayed once again. The tears streaming down my cheeks, sobbing loudly, my body began to shake as I proclaimed in despair "He left me to die!!" He stared at me, wanting so badly to help, but he knew he couldn't. "I'm so sorry, my dear" he quietly whispered as I screamed back "Who does that?!" Falling over to my side, I wrapped my arms around my shaking body, sobbing deeply, clenching my eyes shut as I let my screams of pure heart ache escape my mouth. Tears filled his eyes then, looking away, he couldn't bare to witness me like this because he knew I deserved so much more than this abuse that life was so set on giving me. Screaming out once more, proclaiming and questioning life "When will this ever end?! I don't deserve this, I know I don't!" That's when determination and anger filled his veins and he looked back over towards me as he responded "You're right, you don't deserve this bullshit, you don't!" I could hear the encouragement, the truth and power behind his words as he continued "You are beyond phenomenal and this, this, my dear, will make you so much stronger than before." He wanted me to meet his gaze, but I couldn't as I laid there in torment "Listen to me, Rea" the wisdom within his words "There is no coming back from this." Kneeling down at my side then, gently placing his right hand on my shoulder "But you know what?" He questioned, "You don't need him. You never did and you never will. He has shown his true colors and that is all you need to know." Gently squeezing my shoulder then he said sincerely "You've got this, I know you do. Let it hurt, embrace it and you know what? Walk away from it." My eyes still clenched shut as I continued to sob, not wanting to accept the facts, he then said "Look at me, please." Opening my eyes slowly, my broken blue eyes met his endearing brown, as he continued "Nothing and no one can break you. He was and always will be weak. You though, you are a force to be reckoned with. He couldn't bare it anymore because he knows you are so much better than he ever will be." Trying to catch my breath I continued to stare at him as the tears slowly trickled down my face. "You will be okay, you and I both know that." He smiled sympathetically at me then as he said "Do not ever doubt yourself and who you are." I nodded slowly, sniffling, he caressed my arm then as if to help ease the chaos that I had been battling with. I quietly whispered "I'm so sorry." You could see the concern and empathy in his eyes as he said back "Don't be, please. It's okay. If anyone should be sorry, it's him." I silently scoffed then, looking away, still not being able to comprehend everything that had happened. "In due time everything will be alright and now, now you don't ever have to worry about a pathetic excuse of a human being again." I laughed lightly then responded "Yeah, as if it'll be that easy." He nudged me softly then "Hey, it will be because I'll be here with you every step of the way, okay?" A small smile appeared on my lips then, thankful, I quietly spoke "Okay." Sitting down next to me he said "Take all of the time you need. I will be right here. And I will stay until it gets better." I closed my eyes then, letting the hurt seep into my heart, accepting and bracing the fact that life would never be the same and I would continue down a path alone, without the man I thought I was going to spend forever with.
By Reagan Jensen4 years ago in Humans
The Unforgiven
I remember violently stabbing him in his chest. I could feel the blade puncture his pale skin, going deeper as I impaled the same wound. The rage flowing through my veins, I screamed -almost roaring with fury as I relentlessly stabbed his limp body, over and over again while the blood spewed all over my face. Syla shrieked at me to stop and shoved me, shaking me from my rage filled trance. I stood up, staring down at his deceased body. His deep brown eyes remained opened, lifeless, where light had once shone so bright, now remained distant and grey. I could hear Syla screaming, the tears and anguish pouring from her soul, but she sounded muffled, almost as if she had been far away. But she was on her knees, next to his body, sobbing and screaming at me "Why?!". But I didn't look at her, I continued to stare at him trying to take it all in. But I felt numb, cold... I truly felt nothing. I glanced over towards Syla, her eyes were red and swollen, I observed her face, the tears falling from her delicate green eyes as she buried her face in her blood stained hands. I could hear the sheer heart ache in her cries; I had completely crushed her with what I had done. But hearing her struggle, only made me smile meekly. She looked up at me then, the anger and dismal as she picked herself up and ran at me, but I stepped slightly to the left as she missed and stumbled with her footing. I looked back towards her as she tried to, once again, run towards me in frustration; blinded by her heartache. But this time I didn't move, I grabbed her by the neck and squeezed suffocatingly. I could see her winc, as she flailed her arms in desperation trying to grab at me, but she was too caught up in her emotions to physically do anything. I calmly spoke "You're pathetic, just like him." That's when I saw her facial expression change from anger, to fear. Trying to calm herself down she grasped onto my arm and tried to speak the words "Please... don't do this." I chuckled then, as a disgusted smile spread across my face "Yes, beg and see how far that'll get you." But, as quickly as the fear arose and the realization to the failure at her manipulation, the wrath returned and that's when Syla angrily said "You bitch!" So, in turn, I let go of her neck, and within a blink of an eye, I swiftly stabbed her in her jugular with the knife that had laid dormant in my other hand. Her eyes instantly widened, her right eye began to twitch as her lips attempted to mutter something, but the blood began to pour from her mouth as her eyes stared into mine. An iniquity filled smirk layed plastered on my face as I twisted the blade while holding the back of her head. Nothing but gurgling sounds emerged from her lips as I watched the life fade from her green eyes. Pulling the dagger out, her body fell onto its side, making a thud as it hit the ruffled surface of the earth. I scoffed in amusement as I stared at her dead body and whispered to myself "They're all the same." Almost snapping back to reality, I gazed up towards the sky then and let a heavy sigh escape my red lips; remembering the torment I had brought upon two individuals that I once thought I could trust -the unforgiven. And yet, to this day, I still felt no guilt, no remorse... literal nothing and it made me smile.
By Reagan Jensen5 years ago in Horror
Scrutiny
"This is all a test" He looked over at me while his words of wisdom rang through my ears. I stared at the ground, my eyes full of disbelief, I couldn't seem to wrap my head around it all. I could feel the knot in my stomach burning, the confusion clouding my judgement and the uneasiness suffocating all common sense that I had left. I looked up in his direction, seeing him standing there, the slight breeze moving through the trees making the leaves dance behind him. He continued "Temptation is standing at your door, to ruin everything you've built" he paused for a moment, but then said "Or maybe it's a new opportunity, waiting to finally be pursued." Our eyes locked then, I couldn't bring myself to break away from his gaze, his dark, almost black eyes that stared into mine as my mouth opened to speak, but no words seemed to come out. He could see that I was struggling, battling my own mind at what the truth could possibly be. He could tell I was breaking and he enjoyed every moment of it. "It is something that has been put before you, once again." He had no expression upon his face, but I could hear the sternness in his voice "If you do not pass this... then you weren't ever ready to begin with and the same thing will be repeated, only to test you once more and you will continue to hurt those around you." I felt a weight in my chest crushing every ounce of hope that remained and he knew it. But something about the words he spoke cut through me like a knife, something just didn't feel right, no matter the amount of truth in which he spoke as he said "I know you feel an uncomfortableness, a pain because you know it's wrong and you know exactly what you need to do. The question remains though, if you will truly bring yourself to do it. But no matter what you choose, I will forever stand by you." I looked away from him then, I could feel the tears flooding my eyes, and the anguish tearing at my heart "But why now?" I whispered and pleaded. He continued to watch me fall apart, a slight chuckle escaped his lips as he responded "Because they know you may have found your happiness and the world wants to take that from you." I could feel the sudden sense of betrayal rush through my veins, the sadness that then turned to anger as I shrieked "Don't you do this to me!" That's when he smiled... that iniquity filled smile. I fell to my knees then as the tears ran down my face as I gasped "Please..." He knew he was winning and that I was crumbling to a mere pile of rumble. The smile never left his face then as he responded "Oh, my dear, you have so much to learn." I could see him hold his head up high at that point, and even though there was no life within his eyes, they somehow beamed with so much manipulation and power. He turned to walk away then, because he felt as if he had corrupted my thoughts and the deed had been done. Whilst listening to my suffering, I screamed one last cry, as I grabbed the ruffled surface of the earth within my hands. I looked up to watch him leave, no longer within sight, I unclenched my hands, as the dirt fell between my fingers, the desperation on my face slowly fading; only to be left with a deceptive smirk upon my face as I whispered "Two can play at that game."
By Reagan Jensen6 years ago in Horror
Numb
My eyes were fixed upon the dimly lit night sky, watching the stars twinkle against the dark blanket in which they were encased as I quietly whispered "I don't know what feels real... anymore." The tears beginning to flood my broken blue eyes, as I continued "It's not like me to be so mean." The disappointment weighing within myself at who I had become. I could feel his deep set brown eyes watching me, observing my lips that began to quiver from the immense disbelief that began to surface at the mere thought of it all. I could feel the desperation and confusion begin to cloud my judgement as I glanced over at him quickly "I don't know what's happening" I proclaimed. He stood along side me, his intense eyes met mine at that very moment, the sympathy within his words, but the wisdom remained all the same "But you do." He paused for a brief moment, "You're growing, but you don't feel anything anymore... you've become numb" he calmly spoke. A gentle gasp escaped my lips then, as my eyes danced back and forth as if to find the lies within his answers, almost as if I was surprised by this accusation but all the while as if I didn't want it to be true. He never broke his gaze with me, as the tears began to trickle down my face. "You did what you had to do...regardless of if you see that yet or not." I couldn't seem to be able to come to terms with what he was saying, because everything felt null, there was nothing but a void that would surface every time my mind wandered back to the situation. "But he was all I wanted... what I needed" I looked up at him, the sorrow withered upon my face. He reached out and cupped my face gently, his fingers caressing my left cheek. I could see the sincerity in his gorgeous brown eyes, I knew he did in fact care deeply, despite everything that he was saying. He softly sighed then, but remained remorseful "Well, then all but one question remains... does it hurt?" I stopped for a moment, searching within the bottom of my heart and the crevasses of my mind, the numbness in my voice as I said "Nothing hurts when I'm alone." My facial expression was blank as he meekly smiled at my response, finally breaking his stare, as he looked off towards the depths of the distilled forest. "Then there is your answer, my dear... there is your answer." He started to slowly walk away then, only to take a few steps forward before he stopped, slightly turning to look back at me as he said "But then again, you always knew that from the very beginning." I glanced towards the ruffled surface of the ground, unaffected by his words, and yet I still wanted to say no, I wanted to tell him that he was wrong, but I couldn't bring myself to mutter the words... because I knew that he was right. I could hear the sympathy and yet the sternness within his voice "Don't beat yourself up about this, because it's like I've always told you... you were never meant for this life. You saw it from the very beginning... you just chose to ignore it." He turned back around then and continued to walk off into the distance. I looked back over to where he had stood, only to see his backside, watching as he disappeared into the night, leaving me standing there... becoming lost in my own disgruntled realization of the truth.
By Reagan Jensen6 years ago in Humans
Farewell
He wrapped his arms around me desperately, feeling the warmth of his body pressed against mine, squeezing tighter, he whispered in my ear “I love you.” I let a sigh of contentment escape my lips, as I felt my body begin to melt, because I could hear the sincerity in his voice as I replied back admiringly “I love you too.” Our eyes locked for a moment and I could see the depth of his endearment beaming in his warm brown eyes as I felt his hand caress my right cheek before letting go. But I didn’t want him to release his hold on me, and I begged in desperation for him to stay, but I knew he couldn’t; as did he. I held onto his hand tightly as we both walked to the rivers edge, stopping, he slightly turned back towards me, slowly letting go of my hand, our finger tips brushing against one another as the sadness and determination in his heart felt eyes stared back into mine. I smiled meekly as he smiled back at me. Turning back around, I watched him as he began to walk away, starring at his backside the entire time. I felt the heart wrenching feeling, as if I had mourned the death of a loved one, wash over me. I quietly whispered “Goodbye, my love” as my chin began to tremble, the tears overflowed my anguish filled blue eyes as I tried to remain strong. He continued to walk further away, as the slight breeze brushed through my hair, while the snow fell gently on the ground; the darkness of the night illuminating the sky. He disappeared out of sight into the dense moonlit forest. I held my breath, fixated on the last spot where I watched him vanish, hoping and wishing he would turn back around. I couldn’t believe I watched him leave. Remembering his warm embrace and hearing those soul-stirring and powerful words “I love you” echo in my ears. I stood there for what seemed like hours, unable to bring myself to turn away, in hopes that he would reappear… but he never did. I could feel the tears race down my cheeks, as I continued to stare desperately into the distance. I felt Welril place his hand on my shoulder then, as he quietly spoke “He will return, in due time, my dear”. I looked over at him, the sorrow withered upon my face, the pain, almost unbearable as I pleaded “Perhaps it’s for the best.” He stared at me, I could see the sympathy on his face as he spoke quietly “You and I both know that isn’t true.” I could feel the pain fill my chest, the weight making it hard to breathe, “Then why does it hurt so much?” I proclaimed in torment. He smiled then, the empathy in his words of wisdom “Because this is real and you are in love.” Unable to fight the grief any longer, I ran towards him, and buried my face into his chest as he held onto me. I sobbed heavily as my body began to tremble in the immense heart ache. I felt his hand gently rub my back as he said “Everything will be okay, he will be back, I promise you this.” As he spoke those words I felt my heart break, longing and yearning for his return even more. At that very moment I couldn’t bring myself to withhold my grasp in the comfort of his arms, because I knew he was right… he just had to be.
By Reagan Jensen6 years ago in Humans
Infectious Mind
You watch from a distance, eyes entranced upon me. Lingering in the back of my mind, I hear your dark emotionless voice seeping its way through every damaged scar in order to corrupt and suffocate each positive thought. Your cold touch of death sending shivers across the surface of my skin, slowly freezing the flame in my heart. The iniquity filled smirk, there is nothing but deceit in your lifeless eyes. You never leave, you’re always there, astray, watching, observing. Waiting for the right time to strike. Destined to take hold of my will, your infectious poisonous breath against my neck. You’re ready to kill. And to think… it’s all in my head.
By Reagan Jensen6 years ago in Poets
Misery of Ones Own Heart
You have so much pent up pain. Locked away among the heart ache and lies. There no longer is any life in your eyes. The flame that once burnt so bright is nothing but a mere glimmer, a faint shadow that is on the verge of disappearing. You’ve held on for so long, but for what? Happiness has alluded you. Nothing but agony has come your way. Things haven’t turned around like their deceptive and promise filled lies said it would. Nothing. Has. Gotten. Better. For. You. My dear, you are fighting a losing battle. Hell has betrothed you. Engulfed in its misery and chaos. Withered with sorrow, nothing enlightens you anymore. All you’ve ever known is pure torment, betrayal, loss and anguish. Always left aside like a useless piece of trash. So I don’t blame you for growing tired, and for losing interest in life. For everything you’ve ever had that once brought any speck of light into your life was always taken away. No one understands. No one ever will. Your hope and optimism has faded. You have no where to go. Nothing is as it seems. Entrapped and suffocating from your own defeating mind. The walls are all collapsing around you. You’re becoming closed off and numb. You are on the brink of perishing… and yet no one notices. Because no one truly cares. So what’s the point in all of this, you may ask? Well let me tell you… there is NO point. Especially for someone who is ready to leave this said life behind and say goodbye… for the very last time.
By Reagan Jensen6 years ago in Poets
