Radmyla Domracheva

My Addiction

Dear mom, Let me finally be honest with you. I am not the innocent daughter that you believed I was for all of my life. I have lied to you so many times, because of the shame that I felt. No I did not eat too much ice cream this week or anything like that. Before I tell you, I want to say - in my eyes, you are the greatest mother on planet earth. After all that you’ve been through in your own life, I couldn’t bare to confess to you who I was becoming and who I am now. I knew you wanted a much better life for me than you had, and although that has happened, there are moments where I do wish things were more ‘perfect’. You have seen the many dark sides of me and have forgiven me for everything before I had even done it. Unconditional love – that is what I have in my life because YOU exist. But I feel as though I don’t deserve it sometimes.