Nicole Feist

Healing Inner Child

Leaving 2020 I'm sure has been a whirlwind for everyone. The uncertainty, underlying fear, and overall doubts eating away at people have been a major setback. It is so easy to fall into the misconception that matters will just fix themselves and everything will just fall into place naturally. Yes, there is some truth to that, but the reality of the situation is that nothing comes that easily without a little work. Reflecting on this past year in its entirety, I realized I never learned this much about myself in such little time. There's bliss in solitude which manifests into a bittersweet feeling. It allows you tackle your deep rooted fears and traumas, and learning to embrace them in such a way that is painfully beautiful. Never would I have thought that soon after reevaluating my whole existence and purpose, I would come to face one of the biggest challenges of my whole life...death and grieving. To finish off 2020, I received one of the worst news I could possibly hear, my father had suddenly passed. It was then that my whole perspective on life shifted. The reality is, time is so precious. So precious that every minuscule decision you make or words you tell yourselves has the power to make or break you. I sat on this thought for weeks now and have realized we are much more powerful than we give ourselves credit for. We initially believe we have to prove ourselves in order to be seen and heard in this world, but I'm seeing now it all is about the way we allow ourselves to heal and love and treat our bodies every day that lead us to come out the best versions of ourselves. Healing requires a series of shifts. Time does not heal all wounds, it just gives them space to sink into the subconscious. True healing is going inward, loving yourself, accepting yourself, listening to your needs, addressing your attachments, learning how to let go, and always trusting your intuition. 2021 is the year where I blossom into the most peaceful and positive version of myself, letting go of past guilt and self doubt. I am worthy of all greatness life and deserve all the good energy to come into my life to heal my inner child. My strength is what guides me and I am proud of myself for that. It is okay to be honest and vulnerable, that's what makes you human. Running away from your feelings gets you nowhere. And feeling human, the good and the bad, is what life is. The ultimate goal for me personally this year is to stop playing around with my own potential and pass unconditional love onto others.We are much more powerful than we think, and that is truth.