Nicci Zelda
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just a lil bundle of rage & burritos
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Bricks in the Wall.
T/W: assault, drugs, abuse It's been exactly a year now, to the day, since I was drowning in the epicentre of convulsions, depression, anxiety, & painfully crippling withdrawals. I remember on this day, saying to myself; "I can't do this anymore. I can't keep fighting. I am EXHAUSTED, & all I want is to come up for some air. Every single part of me has died." & yet - much to my gratitude - I did not quit. I've managed to tower over that hell of an ordeal & come out on the other side, able to look back in & feel so proud of myself for being as stubborn & headstrong as I am (for once).
By Nicci Zelda5 years ago in Motivation
Waking up
It was 2015, & the downward spiral of my addictive personality had fully taken form. I was slingin haircuts at Supercuts, taking multiple breaks every hour or so to pound down a few shots of whisky to steady my hand, or after a while it was to lock myself in the bathroom & try to find a vein to tap in the low light to ease the pain. My path of self destruction started very young, around 11 or 12, after a few traumatic sequences took place, but it wasn’t in full beast mode until I was well into my 20’s. At the time, I didn’t plan on surviving through it, so there was no “plan”. I already lived a fast life, I was surprised to even make it to 25.
By Nicci Zelda5 years ago in Psyche
