Megan Geren
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Shattered
After hitting my 30's I feel my life has fractured into several pieces of my self. I am a mother of 4 kids and married to my best friends who very recently became blind in 2020. a traumatic accident with a handgun took his sight leaving him blind for life. When I was younger I felt I could take on the world now, I feel shattered in this place. I never truly felt I belonged in this timeline to begin with. But even more now than ever. with all that's gone wrong in my life and all the struggle's I've over come. Stronger I may have become but at the same time I've become distant to the world and how its shaped its self for the worst I think any ways. When Covid hit in 2020 the world became so greedy, cold, and anti-social to everyone. the more I get up in the mornings the more I don't even want to try any more. Making friends is even harder to accomplish not only for me and my husband but for our kids too. Although I'm strong and egger the world is so hard to be more than successful. For years I have been trying at my dreams to bust and keep falling in the cycles of what's and whys. Watching others lie through success and I cant' even succeed in honesty. All I truly want to do is succeed in this life and give my children a chance to dream too. I have goals in my life to not only give to my children but for my husband as well to try and give him a second chance in life. It is so hard to achieve these even with all the resources out their and hard work. I have been trying so hard that in the middle of it I am so stressed that I'm never doing enough for my family. Being so shattered in this life it's like putting a broken mirror back together piece by piece. What I am trying to do is reflecting back at me in away I feel is empty or meaningless. As a parent and a caregiver to my blind husband life is a challenge but I don't regret my choices to stand by his side. I am just lost in this situation and just thinking to my self why's and how's in my current situation. Will it ever be enough or will this feeling of the broken feeling will ever lift up. Will my goals ever be an achievement, will they ever be enough, will they have a good meaning to my life's goals to give more to my family. I watch people around me being able to achieve their dreams and find what their looking for. Its like my family cant find away out what feels like a curse. Never giving up is one my biggest strengths but at times I feel I'm going to snap and brake down and cry because its never ending in the disappointments of this life. The world is becoming a dark whole of hateful people that don't seem to show remorse, sympathy, or help to those who really actually need it. It all just seems so dark and depressing along with isolated. Sorry for complaining about this world but i know some where I'm not the only person that sees this world going down the dark path. I am certain I'm not the only family struggling in a place that feels so empty and divided out from class to class, high or low or even by your ways of living.
By Megan Geren4 years ago in Confessions
2020 Hardships for Event Coordinators and small Business alike
As 2020 slowly comes to an end so is the openings of new business's, with restrictions and closings from all over the world putting in new perspectives and holds on life's developments in the business world. For franchises in the bigger cities don't seem to be greatly effected as the smaller business's and sole-proprietorship's of the business world, everyone in suffering in one way or another. Watching your favorite stores close their doors because finances and sales dropped greatly puts its customers and business owner's in a financial burden.
By Megan Geren5 years ago in Journal
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