Maya foss

Lost girl

(This story has uneasy topics and readers might get uncomfortable) Hi my name is Maya foss and I’m 13 years old, now this is sort of like an auto biography but this story is only half about me, the other part is my moms I love my mother with all of my heart and soul she is my other half and wouldn’t be here without her this is meant with no disrespect . It started on December 26 1984 when my mom was born. She grew up with an abusive parent that I can not go into detail based on permission status, but all I can say is that it was mentally damaging. My mother developed boarderline personality disorder (BPD) which is basically a unstable life style in all aspects. She had my brother at a young age, which is a difficult task and my brothers dad committed. Soon after she had me on May 1st 2009 and until I was 3 I was living basically a perfect life in my eyes, we had a house with my dad and mom and my brother, but my mom and dad never see eye to eye so they broke up especially with my dads anger issues and lack of understanding. I grew up in separate homes which never really bothered me, but when it came to rules and the way I was raised I hated it. My mom always had my best emotional Well being in mind, and my dad had my school and more life well being Such as getting into college, making money, and just anything to keep me off the streets. Then something happend, my mom got married and let’s just say I had a very bad feeling from the start. I was 4 at the time and I practically hated this man for reasons I was unsure of, but sooner or later they got married. We ended up living with him for 2 years until I was six but all through out this time I felt he was being super shady and suspicious, at the time he was in medschool and would often leave to go to “classes” and no one really thought anything of it, except me. I always felt he was lying because I’ve had some pretty gnarly gut feelings but I was little so I was never really sure but one weekend I went to my grandmothers and found out that he was cheating on my mom with all the girls she knew on her soccer team. Then we started to live in a big house that she had in her name due to being a care giver to an elderly man that passed on.. things were great! I had everything I ever wanted, until my mom revived a phone call from my dad, at the time he has been dating a girl who I like and get along with to this day. He called my mom and asked her if she would move to Austin Texas so we can all be together, to have better pay, and better school districts as well. Then shortly after we had lunch with everyone to tell me that we were moving. I was super happy because I didn’t have mush here just my family but I was young so I didn’t really care at this point. Me and my mom got an apartment as well as my dad and his girlfriend and I would switch back week to week with everything going well! But then this is what I call the bunny streak. My mom began to be lonely and started looking for romantic partners but part of BPD is not being able to hold relationships very well. She went through relationships some abusive some fine but could never find a good one, this came along with drinking and smoking cigarettes that I wasn’t to fond of neither was my brother. My brother never took a liking to Austin but he moved anyway but when all of this started happening my brother would run away and he went down a bad path himself. Eventually my mom and my brother grew apart and at the age of 16 my brother moved in with my grandmother back where we were from, and has been living here for the past 3-4 years. This was hard on my mom and she had a lot of regret but currently they have a good relationship! A couple years past and my mom went on vacation just to get some air, and that’s were she meets her new boyfriend, I never liked any of her boyfriends but when I met him everything changed, we just clicked and my mom loved him too more than anyone, but after a year of dating things began to be very rocky. I had just entered 7th grade and had gotten myself into a lot of trouble as well, with all the things going on and my hormones things were bad. My dads gf gave birth to 2 kids a year and 5 months apart and I love them so much but it was hard not being an only child, I had less attention and I started to feel like only my mom cared about me. Well eventually I got out of that path and started doing good but my mom and her bf got even more rocky, it was always off and on but yesterday it was over for real this time. My mom is a caregiver for an elderly woman but she is not getting paid much so I decided to write this in hopes of getting money to help my mom! Because I really want to make her happy💕