Maria Dilmore

"Burned"

Have you ever felt that that you have lost a love, of a family member to someone else, you just couldn't put your finger on? I mean were supposed to except those into lives or family despite how are feelings are, right? I had a son, and the reason I Say had, is because I choose not to talk to him anymore...We were good as Mother and Son at one point until he met this major Narcissist. WOW! all I can say is WOW! I have never in my life felt so degraded and down and out. I don't even know who my son is anymore. People say leave it alone and don't interfere, but they don't understand the circumstances of what is involved unless they are living it. I have helped my son on many occasions when he has asked, but as soon as I can't... that's when his girlfriend steps in and calls me every name in the book! You would think, being my son, that he would defend me, or so I would have thought. NO! he did not, he laughed right along with her, I was not expecting this. This was not the son I knew. Don't get me wrong, I Love my son with all my heart but at the moment, yes, my heart is "BROKEN". I did not bring my son up this way, my children are respectful adults but for some reason a child can make you think you aren't or weren't a good enough figure in their eyes. This is exactly how I feel, I don't know who my son is anymore and all I do is cry because I keep going over things in my head to see where it went wrong between him and I but keep coming up with nothing. All I hear is her echoing of laughter and thinking that is all a game. It is as if his feelings for his mother went right out the window. I have three other adult children who tell me to just leave him alone because it's a pattern with them wanting me to help and the minute i can't all hell breaks loose, so I took it upon myself to not talk to him anymore...I ended our conversation on the phone with me telling him....I can't do this anymore, I don't know who you are, as I hung up the phone with tears in my eyes and quietly telling him , "I Love You."