I don't want to....
“That is all I want in life: for this pain to seem purposeful.”
― Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation
I feel like I need to state this…I don’t want pity. I don’t want you to “make me feel better”. I just want you to listen. I have tried on and off for years to write about the things I have been through. The things I have survived through. Partly to get my side of the story out there but also to help others. All I’ve ever wanted was to help people. I still do. I went into caregiving careers from the age of 19. Customer service all my life. I enjoy helping others because helping other helps me feel better. It gives me a sense of peace and purpose knowing that I may have made even one person’s life a little brighter, easier, longer… I want to use the pain I have survived to help others know they will make it out. Even through this horrible mountain I’m currently climbing, I know that I will come out the other side. Reason why: I don’t have a choice. I have people I have to be here for. I have siblings, parents, friends, my partner… I have to prove to everyone that it IS possible to make it out. I’m just waiting for the day I finally make it out myself.
