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My Mother's Voice

I'll never forget my mother's last words to me right before she walked away and into the bathroom where she pulled the trigger on the .45 I had often seen my stepfather put to her head. She said, "How could you?" and walked away. The only other time I can recall my mother speaking directly to me was when she finally decided to leave my stepfather and we drove from CA to CO where my grandmother lived. We were on the highway listening to the radio when the song, "Yummy, yummy, yummy, I got love in my tummy and I feel like loving you," played and my mother sang it to me. It's the only time I remember my mother telling me that she loved me. By the time we arrived in Colorado my stepfather had already called my grandmother and threatened to kill every one of my family members if my mother didn't come back to him immediately.