Janice Lopez

M,S,BST,

There are many women in this world, but I don't think any woman in this world could be as loving as you. Many say that every woman is born with that motherly instinct and seeing you I guess they are right. When nights were cold and lonely, you would tuck me into bed making sure I would stay warm through the night. When I was too scared to sleep you would embrace me in your two fragile arms and tell me stories till my eyes could no longer stay open. You would sing me lullabies when the crickets wouldn't. Many other things you probably did that I don't remember. I wish toddler's memories were forever so I could remember every little thing you ever did for me and I could thank you for every and each one. You raised me to be the lady that I am today. And even though we've had our disagreements like any other person in this world we've never gone to sleep without each other's apology. I'm glad to have you in my life. When they lefts us in our own cold world and things were difficult, no matter how difficult things got and how painful it was to bear with things you always stayed by my side giving me a somewhat better childhood than your own. Always with a bright smile saying everything would be fine. I know you missed them so I mean after all they are your parents but you always tried your best to hide your tears and be strong for me, for Lali, and for Jen, and even though you weren't the oldest you always acted like you were. But then I guess I was wrong at the beginning when I said every woman has a motherly instinct, for our own didn't want us and left us behind. My beginning was wrong. How could I be so blind while having the facts in front of my eyes?. Even though its painful to admit but the reality is that not every woman has that same warm motherly instinct you developed at such young age you were a child raising a child and I'm sorry you had to have such a childhood because of us, If only I were born before you I would have gladly done all the work for you. So once again jess, thanks for tucking me in and keeping me warm even though you were cold yourself, thanks for hugging me when I was scared even though you were scared as well and longed for a hug as well, thanks for all the story you told even though you wished those stories were being told to you, thanks for the lullabies you sang instead of listened. Thanks for being my older sister, thanks for being my best friend, thanks for being the mother I wish we would've had, thanks for being the father we lacked as a child, thanks for existing. But I'm sorry for you having to be the one that had to hold her tears in, for being the one that had to go to school each time I got in trouble, for having to carry a burden at an age you weren't supposed to, for maturing too early, for missing out on a childhood. And now that we are ladies and we are all grown up I have to let you know that you are the strongest girl I've ever met In my whole life and that I'll ever meet and at least on one thing was our mother right we are warriors and your are the toughest of all of us and will forever be. You are my role model, keep going because it's now my turn to stay by your side and cheer you on. We made it through those times. We can make it through anything now. I love you, my dear sister.❤❤