James Compton

The Goddess Pit

~October 6, 1983 Tomorrow is the Endowment ceremony, that sanctified and most holy of ceremonies that continues our legacy. And yet, I cannot help but have twinges, regrets...guilts. Mother says I should not have any guilts. She says it is the will of the Goddess that it be this way. And yet this guilt still sits in my center, cold and heavy, like a smooth river stone pulling me deeper down. Mother says I should rejoice in my coming gifts, and to know that I will pass them on to my children. But again, I cannot help but think, at what cost?