McJammed
Bumping to JLo, Im flowing and the feeling I had just takes me way back old school. Reflecting Thinking and In my Zone but kinda just stuck knowing I important things to do, and I know what I’m doing but also I don’t know. What is clear though it’s that I things have to come to a stop today. I deserve to be free and All happy go lucky but it’s been a while that what I’m feeling is just a bad habit and a huge lesson I don’t ever really want to experience again but to actually do something about it, I know to put endings to my comfortable self BS and lies is to really see why? Asking self Honestly and Be completely authentic with my true self. Running through all the illusions I feed myself and clearing up that fog I can break out my mental anguish and imprisonments and Enjoy My life I have been given. Appreciate all that I’ve overcome because I could’ve been dead a long time ago. You can say at the same time though I was Dead most of my life cuz my mind wasn’t right with my heart and I didn’t care to show empathy or compassion nor did I want to acknowledge that I really was this way. The training of my mind to be right always but knowing that’s not Life along with all my past choices and holding back to be accountable for living the outcome of that, but in order to bring Peace of mind I have to learn from my wrongs pay it forward and I can finally breathe relief from shoulder and such a heavy weight I carried for so long will lifted from my world of self indulged attacks and I just think I’m ready to finally let go of sorrows and fear of actually enjoying the gifts of the presence and I need that. It going to feel so good to actually Believe I deserve that. No more lack and receive freedom and to see it reciprocated living in the truth of how I act. Not sure why but I don’t care who thinks whatever of me but this is just me against Me and facing my own experiences, nothing outside can validate me, be in competition of me or even compare to me for a fact. Only I know what’s truely inside of me and I have to go within my seeking deeply a Healing from what I Feel I need to forgive myself for to just move forward and it’s Not easy. It’s going to take time, a need to be patient and nurturing and kind with my heart. Not to rush the beauty in giving myself the time to grow breaking free and totally in the flow through smelling the roses and absolutely present in the gift, Yes!!! Yes! Yes I can do it and I take back the meaning of my life I had all along just to realize I never lose me just didn’t let myself feel the gift of the present and living presently gifted in my purposeful fulfillment of being Alive living Beautiful and abundantly ME. This is me and I’m just so grateful and thankful to be functional each and every moment knowing anything can happen I might not wake up but if I don’t I went out happy and I find fulfillment knowing I can pass and I enjoyed every second of my presence. I am so through infinity and beyond So In reality physically this life is so temporary so short I except that I’m already passed that but I’ma make it count and not take for granted the me, myself, and I best version of alive and living reality Bossed up and not settling less than telling myself each of the steps along the way, YOU Are so going out with a bang You Magical Peacful being! Dude YOU are so beautiful and Amazing. The universe just couldn’t resist to have the only one me, and when it’s all said and done I had to just have that. Nov. 2 ,2020 5:10 am no hash tag. Just a reminder of the journey as I journal this picture I paint of my Zone right quick as I read back and it sinks in deeper than ever before really appears that Im able to laugh and write a whole entire page of unlimited present gifts. Yes I’m just this and that was that but I can’t ever really not be proud of yourself passed the things I didn’t think at first I would even make it here to even look back at. Dam I can’t even see myself like that anymore but enjoying the presence as a gifts will certainly gift you that present…. So I’m moving forward and I soo passed that….until my next adventure I’ll continually be present in the gift That I am, just As that breathing on. Thank goodness 😅 haha! lol how’d you like that universe, I did that…
