Eyram Kiakia

Surviving Heartbreak

To be honest, I think this is like the first time I've written a blog post and actually not thought about being 'positive' and trying to make people 'see the light at the end of the tunnel'. I'm just being real and RAW. Heartbreak and the heartache that comes with it is actually unmatchable LOL. I don't know of any pain it is comparable to. It's not the worst pain, but it's a unique kind of pain on its own. The worst is when it wasn't even because of a relationship, but a situationship, and I'm not the first person that's expressed this so I know this much is true. When I feel like this, I don't think there's anything anyone can say to make me feel better (except God). My friends (bless them) have the best things to say, and are always trying to uplift me, but needless to say it's as useful to me as a band aid in this situation. It almost feels like the world is ending. And I think that's because this person, in a way, was your world. People like me who are intense beings feel two ways when ending with someone, absolutely nothing or absolutely everything. This is what makes it worse. I've spoken to people and it's come to an end, and it's been a relatively easy 'goodbye'. Yes I'd still think about them occasionally, but the memories would pop up and I'd literally feel nothing. But when I really like the person. Wow. Fam, I'm sure I'm close to death because what kind of pain is that? Why does it have to feel like this?!?!?! How many working days 'til I feel normal again?!????!