Elyse Razack

Eternal Sunshine

Eyes sitting low, eventually your gaze meets the beaming light projectimg for heaven above. Warmth on your skin as you feel the gentle breeze caress through your hair as if you had a personal connection with the wind. Deep breath. Listen to the birds chirping. Deep breath. Acknowledge the calm stream make its way down its ordained narrow path. Deep breath. Don’t think about yesterday’s headache and tomorrow’s foreshadow of unfortunate events. Live in this moment, for you will never feel so alive as you do in this very second. It’s funny how we go through life, living portions of feeling happiness, grief, disappointment, jealousy, rage, excitement, restlessness and stillness. The flesh, the soul, and the mind in a constant battle between how exactly you should go about your everyday life. To feel and how to act. What to think and what to say. I have been on this earth now for 18 short years of my life as of June. I can testify to the struggles and the joy life has to offer, but for some reason the negativity always outweighs the optimism that flows through my head. I have dealt with anxiety and depression for some time now, as many people are dealt with the same cards everyday as well. For many years I have tried to suppress my feelings in hopes that I would somehow, someday be happy. But how does one actually get happy? Is happiness forever once you find it? Or at least until you think you’ve found it. Eternal Sunshine, a glow within yourself that can easily be taken away in just a moment. A light that shines in you to give a little spring in your step and spread laughter to those around you. A sense of feeling present and not having to wear a smile that shortly diminishes the moment you’re finally alone. When you don’t have to pretend anymore. Eternal happiness, it may not be forever but it is definitely a feeling that is worth the good fight. To strive for at least a minute, if not a second of pure joy. Within a babies laugh, or a preferable scent that reminds you of a cheerful day. Joy in a hobby or a film, in a person even. I am a firm believer that no one is truly happy. Everyone deals with some sort of pain and it comes in all shapes and forms. There is too much bad in the world that most times the ugly wins the battle over what’s beautiful. No one is happy, but no one has gone through life and hasn’t experienced what happinesses can feel like. Strive for the moments. In this photograph, it takes me back to a happy feeling each time I look at it. The scenery takes me back to what it was like standing around all of Gods artwork and I felt blessed to be a part of that moment right then and there. To more moments of Eternal Sunshine.