Eilene Quinonez

Divine Timing

The music through my headphones was placed at the perfect volume just low enough to hear the world going on around me as background noise. Both sounds leveled me to a vibration where I was not too focused on either of the noises. I took a seat at what was a miracle of the only empty and available table at the busiest coffee shop right in the heart of town. I looked around and embraced the peacefulness that I was creating within myself and let the cool breeze flutter through my hair as I tried to find some inspiration from the life happening around me. Nothing was screaming any of the answers towards me, so I decided to go down memory lane instead. I pulled out a little black book from my bag and started flipping through the pages. It was an old journal I used throughout the years of my childhood scribbling notes and random nonsense and jotting down periodic bursts of writing ideas that I had hoped to go back and finish but never did. I read all the way up until the very end and that is where I found myself most intrigued by what it read. At first, I thought I was reading an old diary entry but then I realized otherwise. I kept reading and fell into it’s world as it pulled me in and started to read to me this: “I talk about things I can’t really remember, and I think about things that I don’t know how to say, and I feel things all while not understanding where they’re coming from. Everything inside of me just somehow seems so…. Off? There is a million words I can choose from to describe what I am saying in a way that you can comprehend, yet it is something I’ve yet to understand. It is a kind of knowing that you have inside of you, whether it be good or bad. And somehow, you have just accepted it, no questions asked. It is like somehow you started believing in something and the knowing of your thoughts do not scare you anymore. A fullness inside you starts to give you this kind of trust in the universe that somehow feels like it is all in your hands and in your control. You start to feel like your apart of it, like it is you, and you realize that that cannot be taken away from you. You become a true believer in all things you and everything around you starts to become only in favor for you.