De'Shaun Ware

Love lost

Love is lost never to be found again is that a good thing or bad thing? What does love actually mean to us? Some say it’s a unconditional form of action you have towards someone or something. It could also be a thought but most of all a feeling. I believe that statement is true, but I also believe that the quality of the word love has been watered down, but barely able to survive in the drought of todays society. Love doesn’t carry the same weight as it did long ago so today I feel that love is lost never to return to what it once was. Now this is on a majority rules basis for me because I think there are still people who hold love to it’s once glorified stature. But in my experience and perspective I see it nomore than a simple word. For example I’ve said I Love you on multiple occasions but is it a word I just say because I like someone? I believe not now so it’s more because I have a Loyalty to that person. I trust that person and I will do whatever that’s in my power for that individual. But me in the past I used to throw the word around like a damn freesbie. That’s because at that time for me I didn’t feel deeply enough to respect what love truly meant. I have told women I loved them when I really didn’t, and I have truly loved and felt the reverse effects of that. And let me tell you that made me not feel good at all lol so yea that word can mean nothing or mean a lot for someone. As I continue throughout my life I make sure to use love in its truest form. My family I love unconditionally and that’s because they love me the same and our relationship, but a person I meet and fall in love with is a different story it’s a different type. I’m 29 years old and I’ve only ever loved 2 women in my life how did I know it was genuine? It’s the emotion for me, it’s the comfortability and feeling I get when I was in their presence. When I love you you will know it, but it’s scary as well. It hurts more than anything when that love gets comprised I would put my self at risk of destroying my self to keep that love and as I progress I’m working on knowing when it’s just not worth it. Now I’ve mentioned different types of love so can we talk about self love? Don’t you think that’s the most important? Love is lost can definitely be true because people lose all these types of loves at one point in their lives. So another question is do you rekindle that relationship with your family? Do you find another love once you go through a bad breakup? Or will you ever take the time out for yourself to love yourself again? I’ve lost love many times but it always comes back but the one that was most important for me was loving myself. It was missing for a very long time and when I finally cherished it for what it was I held on to it forever. There is no way I would ever not love myself and I suggest anyone who reads this to feel the same one day. So in some ways right now yea you can say love is lost but to be found again? That’s all up to you so yea my love is found and I believe in true love, sometimes it starts with yourself and more than just what you want but what you need. So as I continue this journey through life I hope to never lose love again but if I do it won’t ever be the love I have for myself.