Danny Newsom

PURE JOY

We search for it. Suffer greatly at times to capture it. At the median of the the spectrum tilts hope mix with uncertainty - call it faith. I will not oversell or undersell honesty. It keeps me from faking the orgasmic bliss of total surrender. Nothing compares to the all encompassing warmth to be free, at that moment, of anything less than uphoria. Doubt, pain, anguish, lust, hardship, all that once written suffering: absent and without substance when pure joy is at the core of one's soul. I'm guilty of lying to myself about finding it. Wanting it so bad, you'll pull regret right out of the ashes and show it to be true. For it can be difficult to know when pure joy is enjoyed or it's a forced feeling one is supposed to feel. A lie told to us from what others see it to be for themselves. Therefore, what it's should be for ourselves.