Crystal Rae
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My heart bleeds black and white for you to read like an open book... so don't be shy... take a look!
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The Pattern I Need My Daughter To Break
As a young girl, I was very close to my grandmother on my mom's side of the family. My grandmother was forced into marriage when she became pregnant with my mom at the age of seventeen. My mom was also forced to marry my biological father when she became pregnant with me, also at the age of seventeen. As you guessed, I too became a mom at seventeen, however, I was not forced to marry. Thankfully, times were different when I became a teenage mom.
By Crystal Rae4 years ago in Families
Little Pig, Little Pig, Let Me In
Do you recall the children's story about the big bad wolf trying to break into the homes of the three little pigs in an attempt to eat them? I can't say I recall exactly how the words went, but the whole gist of it was to ensure your house was built with solid bricks. Isn't this the same idea as building brick walls inside of us to keep the bad guys out?
By Crystal Rae4 years ago in Humans
When Did Having "Expectations" Become Something We No Longer Should Do?
There seems to be a new trend that is becoming more and more... trendy! To be honest, I am blown away at the concept of it and yet, I seem to be the only one who is actually pushing back and questioning this. I feel like I have jumped into the Twilight Zone and at some point, all of this is going to click and make sense.
By Crystal Rae4 years ago in Humans
A Pup Named Meso
I was finally back living in my home. The one that tried killing me with a natural gas explosion and fire in 2019. This was followed by a contractor who took the insurance money and did not fully complete the job to rebuild it back to a state better than before it blew up and burned. So I was dealing with all of that along with the nationwide epidemic that was taking place in 2020. I was exhausted and running out of reasons to get up and keep fixing my home on my own. My home has been a living nightmare right from the very beginning and I was honestly over it! My children were all young adults and had moved out on their own. I had one dog die from the natural gas poisioning and two others I had to rehome due to my living situation not being safe for animals at that point in time.
By Crystal Rae4 years ago in Petlife
If You Can't Say Something Nice Then Don't Say Anything At All
I will never forget the day I found out my life was going to forever change. It was the day before my 17th birthday. I had run away from home to live with my boyfriend and I was sleeping all the time. I thought it was probably the onset of depression and I had gone to see a doctor. As part of the routine physical check-up, I had to do a pregnancy test. Much to my surprise and my doctors... it came back positive. The good news was I wasn't depressed. The bad news was I was still a young kid myself and I was carrying a child. I remember feeling so scared of all the things that could possibly go wrong prior to childbirth. I wanted to ensure I was doing everything by the book to prevent any types of issues for him or her. My goal was for whatever I was going to have to be healthy. I read articles and books about anything and everything pertaining to babies before they are born. What to eat, what not to eat, what exercises to do, and what kinds of music to play would help in making my baby smart.
By Crystal Rae4 years ago in Families
The Night Was Blue
There is something to be said about taking a moment to stare into the darkness and find a picture clearer than during the daylight. I am finding myself in these types of moments more so than not these days. Ones where the wind feels clear if you could associate a color to such. A feeling the form of an absence. Not of another body but a state of mind. Knowing somewhere along the path you followed you lost yourself. The one that knew the meaning of right and wrong, and there was no gray area. The person with careless dreams and big ideas. Ones that were bigger than the night sky. Even far more vast!
By Crystal Rae4 years ago in Humans
Turkey Day For One
I threw on my sage green Carhart hoodie over my long john shirt. It looked freaking cold outside but I wanted something to drink. Something with a kick that wouldn't make this day feel so bad! I totally had forgotten it was the day before Thanksgiving. My #2 favorite holiday. Halloween of course takes the lead on that one. Both for very different reasons. Halloween for the day is all about sugary sweets and playing dress-up in the land of pretend. Thanksgiving for my love to cook and nurture. Having my family and friends gathered to share in catch-up stories, playful bantering and, recipe exchanges... all with a background of colorful fall leaves that can barely be seen as the fresh snow has begun to drown out everything.
By Crystal Rae4 years ago in Humans
May The Fourth Be With You
From the moment I became a mom to my second-born child, my life got much harder! She would be the one my mother had wished upon me many years prior with the dreaded curse "I hope you have a child just like you one day"! Many thanks to my mother for that... because I did in every single way! From her looks to her attitude, she was truly my mini-me! The one to push me to the brink of madness and keep me awake at night with worry. I was certain one of us wouldn't make it alive to see eighteen birthday. Most days with that stubborn, know it all mini version of myself, was a challenge. Other days, it was her belly giggles that kept my soul charged and a smile on my face.
By Crystal Rae4 years ago in Families
