Cleola Moore

took on so much

I took on so much mental stress and torture for nearly two months. Today, on my birthday, I want to sincerely say to my wife: "All the way wind and rain, with you, thank you, wife!" Every birthday there are many friends to send me blessings, I am very happy. I am not a sociable person, do not like parties, do not like to eat and drink, work because of some things misunderstood by others, I will not make any explanation, I only believe that time will prove everything. Therefore, in this life, there are not many friends." Can not be satisfactory, but please clear my heart ", the past years, I have done a lot for others, not asking for a return, not accepting the heart of gratitude. I believe in karma, good and bad, love and hatred, mutual knowledge and forget, fire and cold, are all causes. Leave the light, my state of mind stable; Contact is rusty, quiet is cool; My heart is resentful, I smile. For the rest of my life, I will cherish everyone around me every day. Cherish those who have cared, helped and supported me; Cherish the relatives who share weal and woe with me day and night; Treasure the heart of every moment moved! The year of destiny, has already passed the age of moving, once the struggle, brilliance, have disappeared, I "will not be like love at the beginning to see the fallen leaves and sad, for a classic love movie or a sentimental novel and tears, will not be like a student to see the deep sea and cheer, listen to a praise and excited." The only hobby, is to read, the book is my life forever difficult to abandon the partner, has been indifferent to fame and wealth, look down on power, I am glad to find the source of internal spiritual growth. When the night is quiet, sitting alone in front of the computer, let the thoughts fly, listen to the keyboard sound, with the "heart" to write words, with the "word" to express the mood, with a tenacity and unremitting, with a belief and vision, with a longing for life and attachment of the heart, calmly read others, read themselves, with their own way of life, with a detached mood, free and easy feelings, In the life of this hurdle to obtain enrichment, obtain happiness, enjoy the highest realm of life! Today's weather is very bad, stormy, I do not know what will happen this year, I do not know how long I can live in the future, rolling red dust, I do not know how many storms in the future road will be bumpy, eventful years; I do not know how many let me unforgettable, let me sigh with regret, let me engraved on the heart of the people and things! Since you have embarked on the journey of the second half of life, then with a love to give back to the community, the heart without distractions, enjoy the realThe hour hand points to the eighth day of the ninth lunar month in 2016, which is my birthday. On this day, I officially stepped into the threshold of fifty-two years old. For decades, I particularly care about this day, I have set an unwritten rule for myself, this day, I do nothing, nothing, just ask for a plain good mood, quietly to enjoy my birth. My most concerned about this day is the weather, perhaps is too superstitious, or a kind of sustenance, I look forward to a good day. Although I know that this season is the combination of the exchange of solar terms, the combination of "cold dew, frost's descent", the alternations of hot and cold, and the weather is changeable, so every time before the birthday comes, I pay special attention to the weather forecast, hoping that the sun will shine. Day really did not live up to my intention, almost every year today is the sky high clouds, purple gas rising east. In the future, although there are many ups and downs and tribulations, I will think that my birthday is a good day, everything will pass, this naive idea has become the support of my life, until now, and in the future. People say "standing at thirty, forty no doubts, fifty destiny, sixty children", people to the year of destiny should be the age of harvest, looking back on the road, deep shallow, twists and turns, filled with the bitter, hot and sour life. Fifty-two spring, summer, autumn and winter seasons vivid reincarnation, experienced the innocence of childhood; Young hazy, youth fanaticism, middle-aged calm, only to know the true meaning of "plain light is true". When I opened the mobile phone, I saw the blessing my wife sent me: "Full of love, full of meaning, full of blessings for you!" Dear husband, good morning, happy birthday to you! Happy! Happy!" I could not help falling tears of happiness and gratitude, no vows, no water withered stone rotten, there is just a close greeting, a sincere blessing, let me have mixed feelings, tears. Because of work, over 50 years old I had to leave the home, left the wife, all the family by the wife a person to bear, a person alone to guard a village compound, a person overall management of the family. His wife also has a job, is a serious person, a class teacher for a lifetime, ushered in a lot of unworldly urchin, sent away a batch of academic and professional talents. Now and my age, she is still struggling in the front line of teaching, and virtually shoulder all the housework, more importantly, she is a person, a woman, a woman who has never lived alone, in the dark night, the big door is locked, a person curled up in an empty house, this fear, this suffering is unimaginable. However, she did not complain