Clarice Capps

World Around Me

Ever since I was in the 6th grade, I've had problems with people and the world. I got bullied by people and soon I found myself bullying kids in my school. In 6th grade, I started out as a good kid, and then I guess something clicked in my mind. I found myself running away from home; I really don't know why though. I had a good family and lots of people to help me in life. Kids didn't want to talk to me after that went down. I really didn't blame them for not wanting to talk to me. It was the summer after 6th grade going into my 7th-grade year. My family wanted to move to help my grandma out with her farm. Summer went well, I really thought I had changed over the summer. The first day at my new school was going well, I didn't talk to many kids that day. And no one talked to me for the whole day. It was getting to the end of the semester when I started doing drugs and getting into a lot of trouble. I was getting mad at my parents a lot and didn't feel like anyone loved me. People hated me at school and people knew how they could get to me and my feelings. I started cutting, almost daily, hurting myself. It wasn't going to help me at all and I knew that. My family found out and I was so mad. I met this guy, let us just call him John and no that's not his real name. John was 4 years older than me, I liked him and he liked me. We knew that we would never be together but when I told him I didn't want to be home, he took the time to pick me up and hang out with me. I really don't know why though. He was nice and sweet. Things got out of hand that night and I think we regretted all of it but he soon found our selves dating and no one liked that. Sooner or later we broke up. I went back to my old ways of drinking and smoking pot. I stopped because I knew if I didn't, I would be just like my dad. The summer after 7th grade I wanted to change myself so I did. I stopped smoking and talked to people about what I've done in my life and it helped me a lot. The 8th-grade year rolled around, I find my self-being liked by a lot of kids and lots of the teachers at my school. Leadership and 4-H came into my life and I've found something I could do with my life and not spend all my time drinking and wasting my life away. I'm happy with what I've done with my life and now I may have changed with future leaders and helping a lot more than I thought I could. This just shows that if you don't have a good life now you could change and become something that everyone likes and what you want to be. Thank You for reading this. Have a great day!