Arsema Asghedom

Spirit Talks💙

If I had the courage I’d say... I don’t always feel worthy of your love and that’s a strange situation for me because I’ve never felt that way before. It’s a deep reflection of how uncomfortable I am with myself right now, yet and still there’s no other place that feels more like home then you... that’s terrifyingly beautiful in all it’s glory. It’s like you’re the image of the life I can have the person I am and aspire to be every day, and I’m not her.. not in this moment. Every day I feel I fail myself in being her I feel as if I’m failing you. Pressure trying to be what I think is deserving of you. All the while knowing I am deserving simply by existing, breathing, being... me any doubt in that is a reflection of my self judgment holding me back confining me to critiques that go beyond you and I... to the beginning of time, generations of woman in my lineage heal through me as I shift the narrative and birth new light to our illuminating presence, returning us back to the Gods that we are that I am that I know I am every day. Despite the flesh telling me I’m weak, unworthy, not there yet... I am there even when I am lost , when I’m no where at all, I am there. Inescapable is the God in me. I am love as God is love, so i am never without even in those moments of doubt.