Annekje R. Thompson
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Poetry and fiction story writer
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Let me start by saying that life hasn't dealt me the kindest hand. Hasn't dealt me the worst, but not the best or the kindest either. My current situation right now though, in every aspect is equally the best and the worst time of my life. I work two jobs and live in an expensive town. So, yeah, I'm struggling in a lot of ways. With COVID-19 out there now, everything is harder than it normally would have been. I fight depression, insomnia, struggle with anxiety and lately, severe panic attacks. A very bright light in that particular dark cloud is that I am no longer suicidal. I'm struggling to find myself, find who I am and to not be ashamed of whoever that person is and not worry what others think about me. Two jobs every day. I'm a workaholic who doesn't know what to do when she isn't working and being like that isn't the.....healthiest way to be. Aside from my books, I am having to re-discover what hobbies I like, as well as finding new ones. As far as having friends goes, I don't have very many and while I am trying to make new ones, it's hard. Starting about seven years ago, I became really good at shutting people out and never letting them in. Add that to being an awkard introvert who is really bad at starting conversations, it's hard for me to make friends. However, I do like puzzles and challenges, so while stumbling around in the dark trying to discover who I am is terrifying, it's also intriguing and challenging. Some mornings, that's probably the only thing that gets me out of bed. Wondering what new thing I'll discover about myself. So all of that is what makes this particular time of my life hard.
By Annekje R. Thompson5 years ago in Psyche
