Alyssa Curtayne
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WRITER, TEACHER, CREATOR
I write for my own therapy - I write when I'm happy, I write when I'm sad and I write because I love having the crazy ideas in my head on paper so I can really embody them. I hope what I write can help you too.
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Courage to be loved
My partner, Kind Man, is on the other side of the continent and I'm not going to lie, I'm struggling with the distance. At first I enjoyed the space and the freedom that came with being alone, but then when the chaos of moving started to settle, I started to notice his absence. I missed him. But this blog is not about long-distant relationships, or even about us, but about my inability to tell him that I love him. He tells me all the time. My usual response is to make a joke that he has "love goggles" on, or that he's made an error. I don't know why it's so hard for me to accept his love - which he gives freely and without condition - but the thought of actually saying "I love you" makes me feel incredibly vulnerable, so vulnerable in-fact, that I feel emotionally naked.
By Alyssa Curtayne5 years ago in Humans
I am nothing
I am nothing. Let that sit with you for a moment. I am nothing. But I don't want your pity. Here's why: For the past four years, and possibly more, I have felt this deep, aching, emptiness where my heart is adrift from any anchorage within my body. I saw a dear friend and the world's best energy healer last week and I described it to him as "disembodied". I literally feel like I am not in my body. It's like I'm here, but not here.
By Alyssa Curtayne5 years ago in Psyche
