My Abuser

I wrote this poem years ago

I stopped writing and started until the tears could go

This emotion isnt just my hurt

It’s more than that!

Please listen, go on, go get your dessert

Sip your cup of tea

Because this story is about me

To the listener if you can relate

Trust me I’ll make you feel great

It’s motivating I promise!

Here is my solace

Marionettes are controlled

From the holder, I’ve been told

Our relationship felt the same

Your control told me I was always the one to blame.

Me! Your punching bag was your game

Your plan was to tame me to boost your pride.

Continuously abusing until I felt my brain was fried.

You always quoted ‘go talk to your other men’

Who are they?

You’re insecurities and lack of trust draining me again.

I struggled with this, and it made me dry

Another blame for something I didn’t do, how about today I die?

You even deprived me of food

Support and love

You’ll never take the fault because I was the ‘stupid one’

I’m stronger now because man that was not fun!

You shot my soul with a gun

Do I had to run

I stood up on my feet and held my chest ready to have you fleet.

I’m so happy I got that strength

With all that length of stresss you put me through

You became the bane of my chest

And listen guys I’ll surprise you with the rest!

A year later he contacted me

Trying to reconcile his heart with me

Karma had not fed him enough

Now it’s my time to give it to him tough

He apologised and expressed he was sorry

I told his ass to leave me so that I can be the free me

Nobody ever tells you this, but this was another of his controlling tricks!

My life has drastically changed for the better without you.

I’m so glad I can do some much too

I love my life, my journey and career

Please steer your control out of here.

It’s hard to gain control of your life again

Especially when vulnerable

Talk to someone you need that rant

Support yourself and pick up your pants

There is so much and many people to life

I hope this poem helps you end your chapter so you can anew