THE THOUGHTS I HAD THAT NEVER CAME THROUGH

I was called out of my thoughts once again. Alex you seem to be spaced out again, "what’s wrong sarah asked me" I didn’t realize what was going own because I was spaced out once again and so all eyes where on me in the meeting room, my attention was then called again, Alex! This time I was drawn back completely, "its your turn" my manager said to me

That was when I realized I was still in a meeting. After the meeting I was asked to wait, that was when all the misery started I was fired from the job I loved doing the most, at that point I didn’t know what to say to my manager so I just left his office I went to my office packed all my things and I left without answering anyone. When I got home I threw my boxes on the ground, I walked straight to the fridge and took a bottle of water to drink I sat on the kitchen counter and drifted away into my thoughts

I found myself in a house that didn’t look my house or my family house .I had always thought of living in this kind of mansion that I was in, I walked through the corridor of the house, the interior caught my eyes and taste, so I decided to look upstairs when I got upstairs I saw a door that was open it looked like a child's room when I got inside the room there was a baby boy running towards me he called me momma and he asked where is dad

I began to ask myself when did I ever get married or even have a child who would call me momma as all these thoughts ran through my head, I was called to reality by someone who was knocking on my door, It was the landlord who came to give me a notice about my rent, I said to myself are these the thoughts I have for myself living a luxurious life, am I being kicked out of my own house when I don't have where I could go I wished I was not abandoned by my family as I said these words I sat down behind the door and cried,

After a while of me crying I decided to go for a walk as I watched the sunset, I bought some groceries that I would need, when I got to the garage of the apartment I stayed in I saw a girl kneeling down and begging a man I could not see his face but I could feel his aura and it was not a good one it was dark and cold I thought I was imagining things until I was being dragged and the next thing i heard was kill her I began to tremble at the hearing of the cackle of the gun but to my greatest Suprise I wasn't scared, I met the eyes of the man whom that girl was begging after a long time of waiting to receive orders to kill me I swallowed hard before speaking to the strange man "why didn't you accept her love I bet she has given her all to you" I said to him. "and who are you to butt in, you must have heard when I said to her I do not have any intrest in love and she knew that before she signed the contract" he said to me, I did not know what to say I mean this guy does not do love he would obviously be a ruthless jerk, I will need to test him.

I think that's where I would end the story samantha, that was the name of my therapist. But in summary it was a thought I had that never came through.