Secrets In The Mountains

Day after day and night after night, hours seem to come and go. Making a days pay to support just the basic needs of life is more challenging then people really know and at what cost! mines or yours?

When moving out of California many years ago, It was believed that life was going to get better for us all. Instead the challenge of changes started to emotionally take a toll on family, friends and even strangers around the city that had a history already. The movements of work and living.

Jobs after jobs and placement after placement wasn't what was in the plans but continued to look forward. When a hope of rays from the morning sky sun would only be when days were warm and bright making the skin feel that touch of life helped looking at another day with out questions. Having an education also helped with landing a position that would bring not only finances to help with the bills but enough to help others as well in the community. Life is good when we look up instead of down.

Life started to look up until the secrets in the mountain started to unfold with a little black note book that had to be written and stored on the pages of the heart. The notes had to be written in silence to secure the job that continue to meet the family needs. Some day's it was very hard to stay on a shift with stomach aches and head aches that disturbed the soul not to mention what was heard and seen during those shifts. The mountains hid more then it's beauty, and animals but what was really happening in it's surroundings still couldn't be shared. The mountain tops and surroundings.

When standing on the mountain top the city looked so calm and peaceful and when in the city looking at the mountains, the mountains looked too calm and peaceful but the heart bared to differ. Once you learn your surroundings and find out some history about where you are working can bring some understanding of why humanity is fighting for ones own space instead of sharing it. The black book of the heart.

Notes have been added over the years and the heart has grown heavy now, so heavy that it's harder these days to walk on these mountain tops and it's time to release some of these secrets as the end of the road is coming near. New people have appeared under faults promises.

People have come and gone as the animals have too but now more challenges just arrived. People needing employment moved to this state invaded the mountains and pushed people that have been there over many years to state their owe claims. Still the secret continued to add up even when the end of the road is getting closer than ever before. When will it ever stop? If only the mountains could talk, they would. The team come in and became the over takers.

First it was us, then them, and others now they say we, even when subgroups are noticeable. No one seems to be looking at the bigger picture of what is really going on but the black note book of the heart does and it doesn't feel good, not one bit. Soon a major decision needs to be made because continuing to be happy and content was only my secret and now yours. The burden of the heart grows.

The heart is very heavy and sad as the years of working on these mountains has now taken it's toll. The climbing of the ladder is were you would think a person was meant to be but the secrets are pulling at you with tears and heart aches you can't even breath. Taking that drive up the mountain as you can't wait to drive back down with a sign of relief and getting back home where you feel safe and free. The only thing that is coming back is the 20,000 built up in that 401k was meant for some retirement someday. Secrets in the mountains

The mountain secrets were kept so tightly deep inside that in order to receive this money now, a few more years of endurance must really be the decision made to continue and stay, if death don't take it away.

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